The Happiness of Aliveness precedes and supersedes all lesser pleasures. No amount of sexual pleasure, satisfaction of appetites, money, fame or power comes even remotely close to the Passionate Pleasure of Life Itself. This Happiness does not come and go. It is not dependent on circumstances or conditions. Like the Sun which is always shining above the clouds, Happiness is the structure, foundation and trajectory of Existence.

People say, Oh really? What about all the starving children, victims of rape and torture, homeless refugees and casualties of war? Are they happy? How could they be?

This is an extremely valuable and understandable question. Here is my answer: The poor children, the refugees, the homeless, the dis-enfranchised, the forgotten are all suffering terribly. They have been marginalized and ignored, even blamed for their terrible situation. Their situation is the direct result of what happens when we ignore the Truth of Reality, which is Absolute Love. When we ignore Reality we become ignorant. When we are ignorant we suffer. When we suffer we search. When we search we do not find because what we are looking for is not lost. It’s like looking for my feet, as if they are lost. I cannot find something that is not lost.

In the same way, I cannot find God or Happiness, no matter how hard I search. I can’t see my own eyes either. Nor can I bite my teeth or take a single step towards myself. The door to my prison cell is wide open but I prefer to paint blue skies on my ceiling instead of seeing that I am always already free.

The search for God and Happiness is sexy, dramatic and exotic. It promises an end to my suffering, an end which never comes because the search itself is born from suffering. While the Vision Quest and the Ordeal of Understanding are valid and valuable, they hide a deeper secret: You already ARE that which you seek. That’s right. Who and What you are seeks Itself. Life’s overwhelming Passion for Itself drives the Cosmos. It can’t find Itself because It is not lost, so It obscures Itself and plays a Game of Hide and Seek.

God hides in the ego and waits to be found. God hides in plain sight and bursts into laughter when discovered. This is literally true, and children who play Hide and Seek are reflecting the deepest dynamic of the Universe.

Therefore, give up the search and rest in the Beauty and Magnificence that permeates everything. Take off the dark glasses of your spiritual, emotional and cultural conditioning. Take off the clothes of your ideas, concepts and beliefs and get into Bed with the Great Lover (You). Understand that your beliefs are stifling you and amount to nothing more than a prison sentence in solitary confinement. When the false premise of separation from Love and Happiness is incinerated in the furnace of the grueling ordeal and meatgrinder we call human existence, the scales will fall away from your eyes and you will see Life as it truly is, free from your projections of lack and despair.

The refugees, the poor, the starving, the helpless and hopeless are in the position they are in because of the position we all IMAGINE ourselves to be in: inside a body and mind in a vast, cold and heartless universe.

Oh, really? Says who? All of us. All the petty dictators, the tyrants, the low life wannabes, the glittered intelligentsia, the hollowed out cynics and nihilists, the scientific materialists, the superstitious, the atheists, the skin deep intellectuals who claim without a shred of evidence that consciousness emerges from matter, the experts, the authorities, the schoolteachers, the nurses, the doctors, the carpenters, every single one of us.

Every single one of us has made an extremely dangerous spiritual error. The proof? The terrible state of our world.

I can say this for certain: loveless acts and heartless attitudes have all but ruined our world. If love and caring were at the center of our lives and every decision used love for its criteria, there would not be a single homeless or hungry person anywhere on this planet. The suffering we see comes directly from the spiritual error we continue to make and nothing will change until we stop our monstrous abuse of the Beauty and Sacredness of Life.

Who are you or I to proclaim that Life is limited to our puny ideas? Our vanity and arrogance amount to cosmic rape, what I call spiritual pedophilia. The sorry state of the world is a perfect reflection of our default upon ourselves, our betrayal and neglect.

It’s not just the governments and the psychopaths we elect to rule us. It’s everyone, all of us are guilty of malpractice and malfeasance and its way past time to stop.

It starts with the individual who refuses to tolerate abuse in himself and in others. It starts with repentance and a return to the power of love.

It ends with an authentic human culture that celebrates love as the core of existence.

This is not only possible, it is immanent. The whole world is pregnant (and overdue) with the Divine Child. The Mother probably won’t survive the birth, but the Child will.

The Child is holding back and staying in the Womb, impatiently waiting for humanity to grow up so that She can be born into a realm that respects Her. She is drowning and choking in the amniotic fluid and growing way too big for her poor Mother to bear.

She will die along with Her Mother unless we return to love. This is literally true, not figuratively or metaphorically true. The Mother and Her Divine Child are near death and it is up to us to save her from ourselves. This is the most important task for every single individual. Forget your petty concerns and fantasies of survival and fulfillment. Replace everything you thought was important with what actually is important. Throw away every thought and every thing that does not Recognize and Acknowledge the truth and the power of Real Love.

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10 Ways to Transform Failure into Success

“I assess the power of a will by how much resistance, pain, and torture it endures and knows how to turn to its advantage.” ~Nietzsche

Life is pain. Whether it’s the simple pain of failure, or the complex pain of death-anxiety. Whether it’s the simple pain of hunger, or the complex pain of wrestling with your demons. If you’re alive, and especially if you are living a life well-lived, you will experience pain.

How you deal with this pain, and thus how you deal with failure, is what will make or break your character. Disposition is the thing. Temperament is more of a gauge than happiness or sadness. Your flexibility and openness will ultimately decide the robustness of your spirit. With that in mind, here are ten ways to transform failure into success.

1.) Apply the Backwards Law:

“The desire for more positive experience is itself a negative experience. And, paradoxically, the acceptance of one’s negative experience is itself a positive experience.” ~Mark Manson

Also known as the law of reversed effort, the backward’s law is a quirky little perceptual feedback loop that can turn anyone’s brain into a pretzel.

Basically, when we dwell on wanting a positive experience, we are highlighting our lack of a positive experience. This highlighting of a lack is itself a negative experience. Which creates a negative feedback loop. The next thing we know, we’re anxious about being anxious. We’re pissed off about being pissed off. We feel like a failure about being a failure. And that’s the trap.

There comes a point where the only way forward into growth is to accept how shitty our situation is, in the moment. Embracing our failure is itself a success. When we accept the fact that we’re not happy, we create a positive experience. This positive experience may not be happiness itself, but it’s a start. It becomes a foundation for further positivity, despite failure.

2.) Transform demons into diamonds:

“The obstacle is the path.” ~Zen Proverb

Just as the grain within the oyster can be transformed into a pearl, the pain within the human can be transformed into strength. Wounds can become wisdom when we allow ourselves to be curious about how our scars have made us who we are.

Becoming curious with our deep wounds is honoring them with our attention. When we’re able to honor our wounds, we’re more likely to reconcile our demons. It’s not so much that we suffer less but that we suffer better.

Transforming demons into diamonds is having survived a great tragic something, whether physically, mentally, or spiritually. It’s registering more fully with our suffering and, instead of turning away or repressing it, we come out the other side of the cocoon able to “dance” with it. Our wounded heart rises up, bloody and bruised, but with bandages trailing behind it like a cape.

3.) Transform failure into a game:

“A person only plays when they are a person in the full sense of the word, and they are fully a person only when they play.” ~Friedrich Schiller

Life is a poker game. You can’t control the cards you’ve been dealt, but you can control how you play them. It’s your responsibility alone to play the hell out of whatever shitty hand you’ve been dealt.

As it turns out, life is less about getting what you want and more about making the best of what you get.

In order to transform failure into success, somethings got to give. You cannot self-correct in a vacuum. You must embrace that vacuum and squeeze all the hot air out of it, lest you fall further into failure.

Transforming failure into a game makes you more flexible and less rigid, more adaptable and less intractable, more playful and less serious. Your playfulness will give you courage, which will open you up and transform boundaries into horizons.

4.) Process over Progress:

“Circumstances don’t make the man; they only reveal him to himself.” ~Epictetus

Ironically, focusing on process regardless of progress makes you more likely to progress. When you make process primary and progress secondary, you are more likely to be successful in your pursuits.

It’s all about devoting yourself to a system rather than a goal. Having a goal is just fine. But what happens if you fail? You’re more likely to get lazy or quit completely if you’re focused on a goal that fails than if you’re focused on a system that endures whether you fail or succeed. Having a goal is better than having no goal at all, sure. It’s better than inertia and laziness. But what’s better than having a goal is having a system.

Having a goal is about dreaming. Having a system is about action. It’s about doing. Goals, like failures, just get absorbed in the process of the system. They are subsumed and become more like guideposts along the path of allowing the journey to be the thing.

5.) Allow yourself to not give a fuck:

“The art of knowing is knowing what to ignore.” ~Rumi

Not giving a fuck is a tricky proposition. You can’t completely not give a fuck because then you’ll just end up perpetually neglectful. But if you give too much of a fuck, you risk taking yourself, and the opinion of others, too seriously.

The question is this: Why do you give a fuck about petty shit when you could give a fuck about magical shit instead? Chances are culture has conditioned you into giving too much of a fuck about petty, unfulfilling shit and not enough of a fuck about magical, fulfilling shit.

Here’s the great part: what’s magical and fulfilling is entirely up to you. But there will always be consequences to your choices. There’s always the greater law of the universe to contend with. Better to align your giving a fuck with the healthy dictates of the cosmos so as to avoid the unhealthy consequences of ignoring them.

6.) Transform your failures into steppingstones:

“Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try Again. Fail again. Fail better.” ~Samuel Beckett

Look at each of your failures like hard-earned rungs on the precarious ladder of life. Separated, these rungs are just hardened failures collecting dust in the basement of your suffering. But if you put them together, you form a ladder that you can climb up into something meaningful.

Collect your failures like the precious little information engines that they are. Combine them for ultimate combustion.

It’s all a matter of perspective. You can choose to languish in the prospect that your setbacks have nothing to teach you, or you can choose to empower yourself by transforming your setbacks into steppingstones toward something greater.

7.) Have a sense of humor about failing:

“The first principle is to not fool yourself. And you are the easiest person to fool.” ~Richard Feynman

Failing is a part of life. It’s going to happen, a lot, whether you’re lucky or not. Ultimately it comes down to how you respond to failing. Is it cry, cry, cry, or is it laugh, laugh, laugh?

Do we turn the tables on the pain of failure and come at it with a sense of humor, or do we tremble before it with a sense of dread? Do we have hard feelings about it, or do we cultivate a disposition of lightheartedness? Do we take it seriously and tighten our grip, or do we take it sincerely and loosen up a bit?

The ultimate failure is wallowing in being the butt end of the cosmic joke. The ultimate success is flipping the script by laughing at the joke despite being the butt end of it.

8.) Transform failure into art:

“In art and dream, you may proceed with abandon.” ~Pattie Smith

You will fail. You will be shaken. You will not come out unscathed. You will experience much struggle and confusion. If you live long enough, you will have had your heart broken again and again. Welcome to this thing called Life.

But it’s not all doom and gloom. These tragedies that befall you are kindling for artistic fire. They are the emotional paint you can dip into to create something profound and moving.

The art created from such catharsis becomes the art of life. It’s the unfolding of life as art and art as life. What Ernest Becker called our “immortality project.” Which is essentially a creative and heroic engagement with life that creates meaning, purpose, and significance out of meaninglessness, pain, and failure. It’s a way of transforming mortal pain into immortal art.

9.) Let go of your attachment to success:

“My own words are not the medicine, but a prescription; not the destination, but a map to help you reach it. When you get there, quiet your mind and close your mouth. Don’t analyze the Tao. Strive instead to live it: silently, undividedly, with your whole harmonious being.” ~Lao Tzu

There is no perfect state. There is no final enlightenment. Or, if there is, it can only possibly exist in the moment, during the process, unattached to enlightenment. Unattached to success. Or, so completely non-attached to it that one becomes connected to all things through it.

It’s not a destination but a direction. It’s not a truth but a process. It is only achievable when it is understood that it is ultimately unachievable. The only way to find enlightenment is not to seek it, but to simply be it. The same goes for success.

Don’t seek success, be successful. That can only happen in the moment. In the heart of the journey being the thing. Sometimes it will work out and sometimes it won’t. Move on to the next moment. Seizing the moment leads to seizing the day leads to seizing a life well-lived.

10.) Transform pain into power:

“Climb the highest mountain and punch the face of God.” ~Courage Wolf

Transform pain into power. Transforming pain into power is transforming failure into passion. Pain can be your greatest teacher or your ultimate destroyer. In some ways you’ll have a say in which way it goes, and in some ways you won’t. But in the sense that you do have a say, you should make yourself known.

Rise up out of your pain by becoming its student. What you learn will guide you into a robustness of spirit, which will ultimately help you become a force of nature (interdependent), as opposed to merely forced upon by culture (codependent).

The transformation of pain into power becomes a passionate expression of self-overcoming. A fierceness is born that’s magnetic. It lights your soul on fire. You become a beacon of light in a dark world. Or, even better, a beacon of darkness piercing the blinding light. In short: you become a force to be reckoned with instead of a pawn to be toyed with. Despite failure, despite success, the power is yours. You have only to claim it.

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Gary Z McGee, a former Navy Intelligence Specialist turned philosopher, is the author of Birthday Suit of God and The Looking Glass Man. His works are inspired by the great philosophers of the ages and his wide-awake view of the modern world.

This article (10 Ways to Transform Failure into Success) was originally created and published byThe Mind Unleashed and is re-printed here under a Creative Commons license with attribution to Gary Z McGee and themindunleashed.com. It may be re-posted freely with proper attribution, author bio, and this statement of copyright.

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The famous “rescuing hug”

I was recently reminded of the incredible story of the “rescuing hug” photo (above). To sum up the basics:

Kyrie and Brielle Jackson were born on October 17, 1995 — 12 weeks ahead of their due date. Kyrie weighed only 2 pounds, 3 ounces. Brielle was even smaller and far more frail.

As per hospital policy, they were placed in separate incubators to reduce the risk of infection. Kyrie slowly began to thrive but Brielle did not. She experienced heart and breathing problems and was put in critical condition on November 12 — seemingly near death.

Nurse Gayle Kasparian decided to try something unheard of at the time. She got the parents’ permission to place the twins in the same bed. Here’s what happened next:

No sooner had the nurse closed the incubator door, than the fragile Brielle snuggled up to Kyrie and began to calm down. Within minutes, her blood-oxygen readings improved. Kyrie wrapped her left arm around her smaller sister. Brielle’s heart rate stabilized and her temperature rose to normal.

Long story short: The blessed power of human touch and connection prevailed. The twins survived and are living full healthy lives.

We all need and crave reconnection — now more than ever.

Whenever you’re touched by someone you trust, this welcome physical contact activates pressure receptors below the skin — thus setting off an incredible, healing process. Your Pacinian corpuscles send a message to your vagus nerve which, in turn, slows down your nervous system by:

• Lowering your blood pressure and heart rate 
• Decreasing the level of stress hormones like cortisol

The more you hug, the more hands you hold, the more snuggles you enjoy, the less of a threat cortisol plays in your body. Under normal circumstances, cortisol serves as your body’s alarm — ever ready to launch you into fight-or-flight mode when real or perceived danger is present. 

Thanks to this stress hormone, you will temporarily experience a burst of energy, enhanced memory, increased immunity, and a higher pain threshold. All this is obviously a good thing… except in instances of chronic stress.

Chronic stress = chronic cortisol. The negative outcomes of this equation include dangerously impaired cognitive performance and troubling physical symptoms like:

• Decreased muscle tissue and bone density
• Higher blood pressure
• Suppressed thyroid function
• Compromised immune functions
• Blood sugar imbalances
• Increased abdominal fat which may lead to heart attacks, strokes, and more

Trusted human touch counters all of the above while simultaneously increasing the presence of what has been labeled the “cuddle hormone”: a neuropeptide called oxytocin. It promotes powerful feelings of bonding. From this foundation grows trust, compassion, positive thinking, and an optimistic outlook.

Good news: Self-touch may activate some of the same soothing processes as being touched by others. Plus, if you’re fortunate to share your home with an animal companion, there are many benefits to be gained from cuddling with a dog or cat (for everyone involved).

Beyond self-touch and pets, you can try replicating the positive effects of physical touch by focusing on your other senses, e.g.

• The Value of Keepsakes: Any item that evokes the presence of a loved one should be touched and/or placed in your daily line of sight.
• Memory Visualization: If you’re without any keepsakes on hand, you may choose to rely on visualization. Get in touch with a positive memory with a loved one, meditate upon it, and bring all your senses to a state of awareness and gratitude. 
• Sensory Self-Care: Examples include taking long baths or showers, starting a stretching regimen, self-massage, and wearing comfortable clothing. Also, make it a daily practice to actively discover and appreciate the sights, sounds, and smells within your immediate surroundings. 
• Weighted Blanket: I can personally vouch for the calming effect of using my 15-pound blanket. The added pressure has been found to activate serotonin and reduce cortisol. On a more abstract but delightful level, it sorta feels like you’re getting a gentle hug all night long.

People all around you need real or virtual versions of a rescuing hug right now. Who will you rescue today?

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vision

Even the most wounded human beings recognize their innate value; they tune in to the universal capacity to connect with something larger than personality. As real as one’s lower self is (the personality/ego-mind), so also is one’s higher Self (God/source), available to the extent one surrenders the personal will of the personality/ego-mind. (Hereafter just the ego-mind.) When the God Self becomes a collective experience safety, opportunity and prosperity prevail.

purpose

1. To illuminate the man-made inevitability of trauma, death and destruction given the elevation of the default human operating system of ego-mind,
2. to discern what is the higher Self and reunite with it, and
3. to offer an empowered path to the ego-mind that naturally invites one’s higher Self into active, expanded engagement.

 premise: identity from the inside-out

During a timeframe in the world of being able to assume any number of possible identities, all external identities ultimately fail to satisfy living in harmony with others and with Earth.

Everything is energy both visible and invisible and corresponds with a spectrum of frequencies from the most visible, dense desk to the invisible ethereal vibration. We are body, mind and soul. The identification as the body and mind, alone, has become most common. As such, the exclusion of the soul level of identify limits the range of how we consider ourselves and behave (treat each other) socially when left to only the ego-mind.

One’s personal consciousness exists as an invisible lens through which we see and respond. The default program of the ego-mind has collectively plunged to new self-defeating lows of greed, addiction, control, arrogance, deception and violent rage. In turn, the world as jungle is an accurate depiction.

That being said a return to affirming life is possible personally and collectively. However, to be able to achieve more than an appearance of success in this regard, the essential starting point is going ‘internal’. Self-observation and inquiry is an inside job; a safe way to see and shed the domination of a culturally conditioned eg0-mind of accumulated toxic beliefs and behaviors.

Anyone who chooses to be the best version of themselves can refresh even their darkest perceptions by being fully honest (at least) with themselves. There need not be shame or guilt for the dark side of the human condition. Conditioned ego-mind loses its power as the only reality with the honest recognitions of one’s thought process. These recognitions then become openings for our individual higher Self to renew us going forward.

The all-important foundation and starting point for the creation of a more beautiful world is to determine to make a personal fresh start. Facing traumas and toxic thoughts allows cellular openings of light/God to stream in. To regain the quality we want in the world collective we need first to become committed vessels of that quality within. Such quality is available to virtually all, and yet only happens deliberately: when someone consciously acknowledges the existence of an higher power beyond their own controlling ego-mind.

The choice then becomes to dedicate the ego-mind in service to expanding a universal source energy of love/God within. When we allow and practice receiving the frequency of universal love, it naturally grows inside and spreads outwardly. Inspired individuals and groups tip the scales towards what R. Buckminster Fuller called “a world that works for everyone.”

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The Upgrading Human is a natural, cyclical phenomena of spontaneous steps towards the personal remembrance of our true identity and the commitment to shine for the sake of others.

Upgrade 1.

The first step is becoming aware that I have the power to step outside of whatever insanity is in my life at the moment and instead live in a state of grace. It is not about changing anything externally: gender, looks, a relationship, a job, a living situation or the food I eat, etc. It is about committing to become my best version.

I question and see how my primary family ties and culture have shaped the way I think and behave. I learned how some emotions were acceptable in family and society, and how some were not. I did my best to suppress those that were not. But now I see through these agreement I blindly accepted. Sometimes it can be scary to be on the outside looking in, questioning that which once I believed and lived by.

Upgrade 2.

Fear, perhaps even more than anger, has been a driving force when I review how I have made important decisions. Fear of the future has plagued me.

Upgrade 3.  

I have made many mistakes, hurt people and been hurt. I have suffered but am not alone. Most everyone is going through something, somewhere in the world. Suppression, negative emotions and violence are everywhere as the dark side of the human condition.

Upgrade 4.

The unconscious nature of the human condition does not have to stay that way. It is possible to see it for what it is. Additionally, I need to recognize my own personal contribution to the darkness of that condition; it’s a choice. No one said it was going to be easy.

Upgrade 5.

I realize that human beings were designed to experience the universal quality of love. This helps me to acknowledge dark thoughts and mean spirits within and changes everything. I am safe to see and feel what has been going on inside me as I lift the suppression button. No blame. Darkness, once admitted, is pierced by light, losing power until it totally dissolves.

Upgrade 6.

It occurs to me that I am is not the darkest parts of myself, nor am I my best parts: I am none of my thoughts or my feelings. Who I am is an eternal being connected with the eternal source of life. I was not born and I cannot die. I choose surrender of my ego-mind.

Upgrade 7.

I am open to and receive resonant frequencies of love from my higher Self during moments of inspired presence. I am humbled by new light being born within.

Upgrade 8.

I admit how I get triggered out of presence and into old behaviors. As the observer I notice that I am not able to stop myself sometimes from doing so. Yet because I am willing to see my own behaviors, honestly, I can also decide to do it differently next time. No blame.

Upgrade 9.

The more I lift the suppression button to know and feel what’s actually true for me, I gain courage to deconstruct the lies and fantasies that have crippled me. I feel compassion for myself and others. The more I drink-in the blessings of a state of grace, the more I accept my human condition. The more I accept my human condition, the easier it is to make corrections towards the best version of an ego-mind, one guided by my higher Self. I dedicate my life to being a transmitter of the deepest quality of universal love.

Susan has chosen a path less traveled. Her curiosity about life, and health in particular, fueled her determination to learn everything she could about natural health for body, mind and soul. She intervenes in the noise of modern life to offer freedom from stress, anxiety, depression and chronic pain to a welcomed, felt-sense of wellbeing. Her online course, the CannaWisdom Process~wellbeing in a troubled world, provides step-by-step, careful self-care instructions for the medicinal use of cannabis. A healthy, new perspective on life without the use of pharmaceuticals is possible. Visit lifestylewellnessrx.com

by Robert Cinque

Did you think that Our Lord’s Work was to pay the penalty and assume the karma for your sins and mine?

If so, then you are gravely mistaken and have been co-opted by the very forces that killed him.

Jesus hated blood sacrifice and told the people that he had come to rebuild the Temple. Many people took this to mean that he would destroy Rome and rebuild the Temple in Jerusalem.

But, what he really meant was that he would rebuild the Temple of Mankind.

He said, My Kingdom is not of this world, which surely means that neither is the Temple.

This means that his Kingdom is greater than Empire and that his Temple is greater than bricks and mortar.

The Kingdom of Heaven is the Heart of Mankind and the Temple is the Body.

The Kingdom of Heaven is both transcendentally and immanently located in the heart of every individual.

The Temple is literally the Body of Mankind, appearing as every single individual, also known as the Garden of Eden, the Domain of Light and Love, Freedom, Happiness, and Well Being.

Jesus was  about Love.  Nothing  less.

Empire, bricks and mortar are about Empire, bricks and mortar. Nothing  more.

Therefore, we must establish the Kingdom of the Heart and rebuild the Temple, the Body of Love where it belongs:  in our lives.  In our world.

That is the work for us who dare to take up the mantle of the Living Christ.

The idea of vicarious atonement is total bullshit. I and only I am responsible for my actions and their consequences. No one can save me but myself. Scapegoats are the transference of ownership, otherwise known as blame. Jesus condemned this because it’s irresponsible and childish.

Scapegoats are created by the refusal to self- own, the failure to be responsible and accountable for oneself. Coddling and enabling our childish irresponsibility is a Globalist Wool pulled over our eyes to blind us from the searing Truth of the Utter Unity of All Being.

This was, and is, Jesus Christ’s  Original Gospel.

 Always Already Existing, Inherent, Utter Prior Unity with God and All Being, In Love. That’s why it’s called the Good News.

Jesus insisted that we realize the truth, not believe the lies his killers made up about him and how he’s gonna save our sorry ass from the consequences of our actions or the sin we supposedly inherited from Adam and Eve.

That’s right. Not only are we sinners and moral failures, we inherited a deadly disease called Original Sin.  We’re guilty for the sin of being born to parents who disobeyed God. They passed their disease and sin onto us, but wait, this just in, God decides to murder his Son so that you can be saved.  Wow, what a break. Gee, thanks.

Who is writing this script?

The ones who don’t want you to realize that only Light, Love, Truth and God exist.

The ones who invert the truth, turn it upside down and backwards.

As an example, read almost any headline from the CIA controlled media.

This is important to understand. The Narrative rules the world. The Narrative is You’re Fucked and We Have the Solution.

Shock. Rescue

The Rulers will kill anyone who shows how untrue this Narrative is.

Like Jesus, Lincoln, JFK, Martin, Bobby, John Jr., Lennon, Malcolm, Gandhi, Tesla, Julian and many, many others.

Their mandate has passed to us and

THAT’S THE MEANING OF THE SEASON:  PEACE ON EARTH, GOODWILL TO ALL, JOY TO THE WORLD THROUGH THE REALIZATION OF UTTER UNITY AND INTIMACY WITH ALL BEING.

The Gospel of Jesus Christ is not a theory or a belief, but a Discovery and Realization of the True Nature of Reality Itself.

Only this Realization of the Utter Truth of Life will suffice to save our world.

All at once, now, in everyone, everywhere, now and forever.

The Gospel of Love and Freedom can be expressed in 7 equivalent sentences:

Life is Love

Love is truth

Truth is God

God is Reality

Reality is Light

Light is Love

Love is Life

In this Season, and every day, Rejoice, Celebrate and Be Glad.

The Truth of Life and Love exists. It’s not an idea, not merely a belief. Gravity is not a belief either.

The Good News is more than sufficient to build a world of real Celebration and Happiness. It is the only real basis for a sane and healthy planetary society.

Everyone knows this. The problem is we believe the lies we inherited and the ones we tell ourselves.

The solution is to stop. There is no reason to believe lies or anything else when we have the truth.

This Truth is Obvious. It is not hidden. It is not esoteric, secret or controllable, neither by priest nor scientist.

The refusal to face the awesome truth about Life is what creates hell. Hell would not exist if it were not for the Lie we tell ourselves. That means our lies create Hell. People who say God created Hell because of our sins are incorrect. God would never do such a thing. Only we liars are capable of such a monstrosity.

Taking up the Mantle of the Living Christ means we have to stop believing lies.

In this Season, let us all be devoted to, and deadly serious about, what is True, what is Real.

In that way, the Holy Work of Jesus Christ can continue and awaken everyone to the Condition of all conditions:  Conscious Living Light Alive as All Things.

Our unity as individuals and nations does not have to be achieved. It has to be Realized as being already true.

Adi Da

Poisons

Self pity: the dramatization of abandonment and victimhood. The belief in powerlessness and that everything happens to me, not in me, with me and because of me. The collapse from love into prisons of mind which equate baseless assumptions with factual evidence. Self pity is a self fulfilling prophecy and guarantees unresolvable conflict

Complaint: legitimate dissatisfaction that never grew into positive action for healthy change. Complaint is the evidence of living in a default ego mode in which one feels both terrified and powerless.

Blame: the demon child of complaint. The irresponsible transfer of ownership from self to other. Blame is the last refuge of the coward who refuses to accept the consequences of his own choices and actions.

Contempt: Decayed, rotten anger and hatred that never saw the light of day. Dissatisfaction that never grew into healthy change. Contempt is the vicious scorn heaped upon those to whom we gave our power and who got the blame for it.

Condemnation: the false assumption of superiority. The belief that I’m Ok, you’re not Ok. Condemnation is the evidence that I allow others to control my life.

Criticalness: the willingness to focus only on the faults of others as a way of avoiding one’s own faults

Withdrawal: the refusal to love. The silent punishment meted out to those who disobey my decrees and assert their own freedom. Withdrawal is the final nail in the coffin, the brutal ending of what was once a thriving love affair.

Nutrients

Self Ownership: The willingness to be responsible for what I say and do. The refusal to avoid the consequences of my actions. The understanding that my state is up to me, not circumstances, conditions or other people.

Alignment: Coherence between personal and infinite life. The return to innocence and purity, not by disciplines but by Noticing what is always already true. Alignment is the result of understanding that infinite intelligence exists on all scales, that it is my actual nature, not my hypothecated one. It is my self already, now. It does not become enlightened; It already is light. Enlightenment is, therefore, our actual state now. It is not something that is added to us at the end of a journey; It is our condition, now. That means that we can’t become who we are precisely because we already are it. What happens is that we un-become who we are not. This reveals the always existing alignment that had become obstructed by false assumptions and mistaken perceptions.

Acknowledgement: The Act of affirming and embracing what Exists. Acknowledgement is the result of the courage it takes to face one’s own limited contexts and false assumptions. By Bravely Acknowledging the Truth of Life, all the false identities dissolve on their own and do not require effortful struggle.

Recognition: The mature fruit of Acknowledgement. The stabilized understanding that infinite intelligence is Alive and Well as all things.

Empathy: Love in the form of a willingness to stand in another’s shoes. Empathy is food for the soul of another

Empowerment: one of the immediate results of empathy. Empowerment is the energy that comes from digesting love.

Demand: the requirement that life places upon us to face the Mystery and Wonder and Ordeal of Existence. Demand is the practice of not flinching, not avoiding the blood, sweat and tears of human life.

Enjoyment: The radical disposition of freedom. Enjoyment is the direct result of what happens when Life’s Radiance is unobstructed by our false assumptions and ego identities. In this understanding, the universe can be seen as an expression of Life’s infinite freedom and enjoyment of it’s own Intense Dynamic,

When an individual is willing to be reduced to his or her essential nature and is open to the truth and Glorious Nature of Existence, then that one becomes a Beacon of Light in the world.

It is at this point that an actual relationship begins.

When we Climb the Mountain and Understand the Poisons and the Nutrients, the rest is all downhill.

Dear Friends

In every crisis there is an opportunity;  the bigger the crisis, he bigger the opportunity. The crisis I am referring to is not Covid 19. The crisis is the narrative about Covid 19. The reason the narrative is much more dangerous than the so-called virus is because claims are being made about the “virus” that are not true, yet they are widely believed.

The narrative claims that a microscopic virus infects healthy cells, hijacks their DNA and replicates itself to the point of cell death. The only solution is to vaccinate the individual and prevent the virus from spreading.

To the casual observer, this is plausible and reasonable. After all, the Germ Theory Has been around for 140 years and the entire medical/pharmaceutical industry is built on it. The idea that germs cause disease is the very foundation of health care and is deeply ingrained in the global mind set. In this newsletter, I am going to provide evidence that, not only is the Germ Theory 100% incorrect, it has never been proven, and can be easily exposed for the fraud that it is.

When a tree falls in the forest, fungi, bacteria and other microbes digest and dissolve it down to its atomic level. Then, those atoms are recycled and repurposed to create new soil for new life.

When tissues in your body die, fungi, bacteria and other microbes perform this exact same function and the atoms are used to create new tissues. It is an intense and complex process of destruction and re-building. The microbes are Demolition Crews, Garbagemen, Firemen and Engineers working together for the well being of the individual.

This Process in universal throughout all of Nature, the Great Recycler. There is every reason to have enormous confidence that she knows what she’s doing. It’s irresponsible and extremely dangerous to look at her processes and make false, unverifiable assumptions about them and then invent a planet-wide Congressional Pharmaceutical Disease Management System (falsely called health care). Yet, that’s exactly what John D Rockefeller did in the early 1900s.

He became the world’s first billionaire from the exploitation of oil and realized that the waste products from refining it could be turned into “medicines” to treat disease. In order for that to happen, he had to dig up the discredited Germ Theory invented by Pasteur and make it look respectable. He sent his minion Abraham Flexner around the country buying up colleges and universities as long as they studied germs and viruses and validated the need for antibiotics, vaccines and other poisons in treating disease. While antibiotics can sometimes be useful when the body is too overloaded with the process of digesting and rebuilding dead tissue, they should only be used in extreme emergencies. They kill ALL the microbes and provide a period of rest and recuperation so that the Process can begin again. When penicillin was developed, it seemed like a miracle had descended from heaven. It was credited with the ability to cure disease. The problem is that you can get too much of a good thing. Over use of antibiotics destroys the gut biome, the very heart of the immune system.  Antibiotics don’t cure disease, they only interrupt the process, the patient feels better and concludes that his doctor is a genius. However, suppression of symptoms is not a cure. Only Nature cures, no one else.

Antibiotics and vaccines also damage the mitochondria where the hydrogen in the food we eat is combusted for energy. Poorly functioning mitochondria, like woodstoves that are starved for air, produce creosote, lactic acid and plaque. Doctors who notice this gunk in the arteries conclude that it is the cause of heart disease when it is actually the effect. The cause of heart disease is poor combustion of hydrogen in the mitochondria.

All so-called diseases are caused by injury, poisoning and starvation and are ordeals of purification and renewal. The fact that microbes are present and you feel terrible does not mean that they are the reason you are sick. The body is designed to be extremely robust and resilient and anything less indicates obstructions and congestions in metabolic pathways.

The reason why the Germ Theory and the narrative about antibiotics and especially vaccines is so dangerous is because it removes responsibility for your health from you and places it the hands of the Beast.

The Beast

The Beast is a system of thoughts and beliefs that are presented as Reality. Its power comes from the billions of individuals who idolize it and align themselves with it. The Beast is a Narrative that infects the mind with false assumptions and beliefs, a mental machine that churns out billions of copies of itself.

The choice is clear. Do we acknowledge the meta-genius biology of Nature, or do we submit to the non-scientific, for-profit assumptions of Rockefeller and the hundreds of universities he spent hundreds of millions of dollars subverting? While the universities were scrambling to comply with the conditions Rockefeller laid out for their funding, the Naturopathic Doctors who studied Nature and her Cures were ridiculed and put out of business. It became a crime of “misinformation” to believe in anything but the Germ Theory. Sound familiar?

Covid 19 is the latest and greatest accomplishment of the Germ Theory. Its not pesticides, air pollution, junk food, glyphosate, 5G radiation, fluoride, antibiotics, vaccines, or damaged mitochondria that are the problem. No, it’s the “virus”.

The Opportunity

Prisons create the desire to escape, but only for those who understand that they are in prison. Everyone else is too busy painting blue skies on the ceilings of their cells to notice. For those who have stared into the core of the Beast and understood that it is a machine of control and subversion, then escape is the only option.

The Beast provides a prison and the opportunity to escape from it.

The problem is not that people are lazy and don’t mind their enslavement. The problem is that billions of people do not see the bars of their prison cell. But, when the suffering and misery become great enough, then he and she will come back to life and find a way to break out.

The Germ Theory and the Narrative around antibiotics and vaccines are 2 of the bars of the cell. There are many more, but I want to concentrate on these 2. They are instructive and useful because they are inventions, not discoveries. A discovery is real, embedded in Nature. The invention of a false construct about Nature, like the Germ Theory and poisons masquerading as medicines, are not real, just ideas, fabrications, manufactured stage props and bald faced lies intended to deceive and control entire populations.

Our Work is to stare into the Beast long enough until we understand that it is a prison/machine that we must escape from and then demolish. It’s a lot like David and Goliath. David was a shepherd, Goliath was a fierce Gladiator. Had David met Goliath on the battlefield with armor and spear, he would have been crushed by the Giant. David knew he had the advantage because he was quick and nimble and could dance circles around Goliath who wore 300 pounds of armor. David was skilled with his slingshot and used it to protect his flock from wolves. When the stone struck Goliath in the forehead, it had the impact equivalent of .45 handgun. It took one stone to bring Goliath to the ground. Then, David used the Giant’s own sword to cut off his head.

Our Goliath is the Germ Theory and its armor, the Pharmaceutical/Congressional Complex

Our stone is the truth of Nature.

With love

Robert

_________________________

(See also – my posts at:

Dear Friends

In every crisis there is an opportunity;  the bigger the crisis, he bigger the opportunity. The crisis I am referring to is not Covid 19. The crisis is the narrative about Covid 19. The reason the narrative is much more dangerous than the so-called virus is because claims are being made about the “virus” that are not true, yet they are widely believed.

The narrative claims that a microscopic virus infects healthy cells, hijacks their DNA and replicates itself to the point of cell death. The only solution is to vaccinate the individual and prevent the virus from spreading.

To the casual observer, this is plausible and reasonable. After all, the Germ Theory Has been around for 140 years and the entire medical/pharmaceutical industry is built on it. The idea that germs cause disease is the very foundation of health care and is deeply ingrained in the global mind set. In this newsletter, I am going to provide evidence that, not only is the Germ Theory 100% incorrect, it has never been proven, and can be easily exposed for the fraud that it is.

When a tree falls in the forest, fungi, bacteria and other microbes digest and dissolve it down to its atomic level. Then, those atoms are recycled and repurposed to create new soil for new life.

When tissues in your body die, fungi, bacteria and other microbes perform this exact same function and the atoms are used to create new tissues. It is an intense and complex process of destruction and re-building. The microbes are Demolition Crews, Garbagemen, Firemen and Engineers working together for the well being of the individual.

This Process in universal throughout all of Nature, the Great Recycler. There is every reason to have enormous confidence that she knows what she’s doing. It’s irresponsible and extremely dangerous to look at her processes and make false, unverifiable assumptions about them and then invent a planet-wide Congressional Pharmaceutical Disease Management System (falsely called health care). Yet, that’s exactly what John D Rockefeller did in the early 1900s.

He became the world’s first billionaire from the exploitation of oil and realized that the waste products from refining it could be turned into “medicines” to treat disease. In order for that to happen, he had to dig up the discredited Germ Theory invented by Pasteur and make it look respectable. He sent his minion Abraham Flexner around the country buying up colleges and universities as long as they studied germs and viruses and validated the need for antibiotics, vaccines and other poisons in treating disease. While antibiotics can sometimes be useful when the body is too overloaded with the process of digesting and rebuilding dead tissue, they should only be used in extreme emergencies. They kill ALL the microbes and provide a period of rest and recuperation so that the Process can begin again. When penicillin was developed, it seemed like a miracle had descended from heaven. It was credited with the ability to cure disease. The problem is that you can get too much of a good thing. Over use of antibiotics destroys the gut biome, the very heart of the immune system.  Antibiotics don’t cure disease, they only interrupt the process, the patient feels better and concludes that his doctor is a genius. However, suppression of symptoms is not a cure. Only Nature cures, no one else.

Antibiotics and vaccines also damage the mitochondria where the hydrogen in the food we eat is combusted for energy. Poorly functioning mitochondria, like woodstoves that are starved for air, produce creosote, lactic acid and plaque. Doctors who notice this gunk in the arteries conclude that it is the cause of heart disease when it is actually the effect. The cause of heart disease is poor combustion of hydrogen in the mitochondria.

All so-called diseases are caused by injury, poisoning and starvation and are ordeals of purification and renewal. The fact that microbes are present and you feel terrible does not mean that they are the reason you are sick. The body is designed to be extremely robust and resilient and anything less indicates obstructions and congestions in metabolic pathways.

The reason why the Germ Theory and the narrative about antibiotics and especially vaccines is so dangerous is because it removes responsibility for your health from you and places it the hands of the Beast.

The Beast

The Beast is a system of thoughts and beliefs that are presented as Reality. Its power comes from the billions of individuals who idolize it and align themselves with it. The Beast is a Narrative that infects the mind with false assumptions and beliefs, a mental machine that churns out billions of copies of itself.

The choice is clear. Do we acknowledge the meta-genius biology of Nature, or do we submit to the non-scientific, for-profit assumptions of Rockefeller and the hundreds of universities he spent hundreds of millions of dollars subverting? While the universities were scrambling to comply with the conditions Rockefeller laid out for their funding, the Naturopathic Doctors who studied Nature and her Cures were ridiculed and put out of business. It became a crime of “misinformation” to believe in anything but the Germ Theory. Sound familiar?

Covid 19 is the latest and greatest accomplishment of the Germ Theory. Its not pesticides, air pollution, junk food, glyphosate, 5G radiation, fluoride, antibiotics, vaccines, or damaged mitochondria that are the problem. No, it’s the “virus”.

The Opportunity

Prisons create the desire to escape, but only for those who understand that they are in prison. Everyone else is too busy painting blue skies on the ceilings of their cells to notice. For those who have stared into the core of the Beast and understood that it is a machine of control and subversion, then escape is the only option.

The Beast provides a prison and the opportunity to escape from it.

The problem is not that people are lazy and don’t mind their enslavement. The problem is that billions of people do not see the bars of their prison cell. But, when the suffering and misery become great enough, then he and she will come back to life and find a way to break out.

The Germ Theory and the Narrative around antibiotics and vaccines are 2 of the bars of the cell. There are many more, but I want to concentrate on these 2. They are instructive and useful because they are inventions, not discoveries. A discovery is real, embedded in Nature. The invention of a false construct about Nature, like the Germ Theory and poisons masquerading as medicines, are not real, just ideas, fabrications, manufactured stage props and bald faced lies intended to deceive and control entire populations.

Our Work is to stare into the Beast long enough until we understand that it is a prison/machine that we must escape from and then demolish. It’s a lot like David and Goliath. David was a shepherd, Goliath was a fierce Gladiator. Had David met Goliath on the battlefield with armor and spear, he would have been crushed by the Giant. David knew he had the advantage because he was quick and nimble and could dance circles around Goliath who wore 300 pounds of armor. David was skilled with his slingshot and used it to protect his flock from wolves. When the stone struck Goliath in the forehead, it had the impact equivalent of .45 handgun. It took one stone to bring Goliath to the ground. Then, David used the Giant’s own sword to cut off his head.

Our Goliath is the Germ Theory and its armor, the Pharmaceutical/Congressional Complex

Our stone is the truth of Nature.

With love

Robert

_________________________

(See also – my posts at:

When I say I, who or what is speaking? The only possible answer is infinite consciousness, that which is aware and alive in and as all things. The reason this is the only possible answer is because awareness is what makes experience possible in the first place, and the experience of I is primary and central to all other experiences.

My first experience is I.

I am. I exist. I am aware.

My second experience is I am aware of a body and mind in a world.

Since awareness is primary and central to all experience, I am awareness first and am not limited to the bodies and thoughts and objects that I am aware of any more than the sky is limited by what floats through it.

The incredible thing is that in order for I to appear, infinite consciousness has to forget itself and go to sleep so that it can dream me. I am a character, an eyeball, a perspective, a dream character in God’s mind.

This is why the Hindus talk about Maya, or deception and the Buddhists talk about emptiness.

The universe is what God looks like when viewed through a space/time perspective.

Its not identical to God any more than a brain scan while you’re eating chocolate is identical to the taste of chocolate. The point is that parts of the brain light up when you eat chocolate but it doesn’t tell you anything about the experience of tasting chocolate.

All we have and know is experience, awareness of I and what I am aware of.

All experience is built out of awareness, which expresses itself as I.

The dog knows her name and knows when you are speaking to her. The spider spins her web to catch food for her babies. Infinite consciousness forgets itself and surrenders itself to all beings without restraint.

The awareness in the spider and dog and you and me is identical.

The differences between species is like the difference between sunglasses, microscopes, and kaleidoscopes. All perspectives create their own unique refraction of the Infinite Light of Consciousness.

The reason this is important is because the Infinite Ocean of Living Light is eternal. The bodies and minds and universes appearing within it are finite and are created and destroyed in an endless process of transformation.

That’s what Infinite Radiant Awareness likes to do.

God goes to the Movies. In fact, God is the Movie.

As God’s dream character, the Game is to play the part well. Study your lines. Practice your acting skills with a coach. Take your part seriously. The audience can smell a bad actor and ruin a good story. The best actors are the ones who don’t look like they’re acting. They convince us that what we are seeing is real.

For years I have had a dream in which it’s opening night at the Metropolitan Theatre in New York and I am the Lead Actor in the Play. I am surrounded by actors in costumes. There are thousands of people in attendance and I am about to walk out onto the stage. I haven’t studied my lines, I have no idea what I am supposed to do or how I am going to fake this performance in public. The curtain is pulled back and then, thank God, I wake up.

Another dream I had repeatedly decades ago was my tongue was like a roll of toilet paper and I was furiously pulling it out of my mouth until it laid on the floor in a pile.

These 2 dreams are related and are relevant to the claims I am making in this essay.

The second dream is about other people’s words in my mouth.

The first dream is about a complete failure on my part to understand who I am and who my character is, and the difference between them.

I couldn’t remember my lines because I didn’t know who I was or who my character was. Other people’s words occupying my mind and tongue didn’t help either.

Now, through a brutal process of destruction and creation, I have stabilized and understood my true nature to be absolutely infinitely free and spectacularly beautiful and happy.

All of us share in this Nature.

Reality is so shockingly magnificent and so wickedly beautiful, a single glance into its core is more than enough to shatter your fear, arrogance, and vanity forever.

The point of this essay is to honor and respect what we usually take for granted, our ordinary human life, our mundane day to day routine.

When you think about what had to happen in order for you to be bored on a lazy day, things don’t look so mundane anymore.

The centrality of Awareness is the best kept secret in the world, hiding in plain sight. We think God and Infinite Consciousness is at a great distance from ourselves. But that’s not true and that’s not why we miss it.

We miss it because it is at a great closeness to ourselves, so close we don’t notice.

The point of authentic spiritual practice and study is to Notice.

That’s because when all the minor conditions have been incinerated, only the major Condition remains.

The minor conditions are the objects of perception, thoughts and ideas about body, mind and self. The major Condition, the Condition of all conditions, is That Which is Aware of all conditions, perceptions and objects.

To the Condition, conditions appear and disappear, but it is not changed, like a mirror that is not changed by what it reflects, or a screen that is not affected by the images appearing on it.

The shift from identifying with an image to identifying with the screen is bloody, chaotic, confusing and destructive of all false narratives. It is hot and painful and the dungeons full of rotting monsters and demons fling their gates wide open. I found myself feeding the hungry demons and finding places for the monsters to sleep. Some of them became my friends and allies after I pulled their broken teeth and stitched up the gashes in their flesh. Others moved on to other lands and I hear they tell tall tales of some dude who actually loved them and cared about them, which no one could believe.

My point is this: painful, ugly truth is much better than beautiful lies.

You have been lied to and worse, much worse, you believed them. You didn’t know any better. If your mother gives you a glass of milk, you drink it without question because it comes from a trusted source. The problem for us humans is that we trust sources that don’t deserve it.

For example, how do you know that you were born into Original Sin? Because the Bible says so and you trust the Bible.

How do you know that viruses cause disease? Because you trust the scientists and doctors who say so.

But, do you know for sure? Is there a test that we can do to determine if indeed we were born in Sin? Is there a test to prove that the presence of a microbe in the body of a sick person caused the disease? Does correlation prove causation? No. Nor does assumption equal proof. 

The way to live an authentic life that is free from the swarms of bats that constantly fly into your heart and soul is to become the Sky, to see that you have always been the Sky, you just thought you were a bat.

The water in a pitcher thinks its a pitcher. The water in a bucket thinks its a bucket. No, it’s still water, no matter what the shape.

Water can be liquid, solid or gaseous but it’s always H2O. 

You can be Tom, Nancy or Fido the fucking dog, but it’s always Awareness.

Awareness is infinite, without dimension, not located in space or time.

You are that. The proof is that Awareness is always your first experience and that only it can enable perception. No awareness, no perception. No perception, no experience. No experience, no Now.

Awareness and Now are identical. The proof is that wherever you go its always Here and no matter what time it is, it’s always Now.

You can’t get away from yourself. You’re always Here and Now.

This means that you are bigger than and prior to all phenomena, states, conditions and perceptions, all ideas, images, beliefs, and thoughts.

You can’t achieve this, you are this. The religions want you to seek this because they know you will never find it. You can’t find it because it’s not lost. It’s not lost because it’s the only Reality that Exists.

Yes, only Awareness exists and you’re it. Every so- called other shares your infinite being. You are like an infinite Ocean in which everything floats and swims. You are not born and you do not die. The playful forms and organisms are born and die, but the Radiant Living Awareness that circulates between their cycles of birth and death, doesn’t. 

You will not end when your body ends. You will see then and you can also see now, that this is true. Awareness is true, absolutely true, the Screen upon which all phenomena appear.

So relax and enjoy the show. After all, you wrote it, directed it, starred in it. You also built the theater and the audience in the Auditorium of the Heart.

The practical take away is this: every idea you ever had about yourself is wrong because you are not an idea, a thing. You are the Awareness of the idea.

When this becomes obvious to you, the cultural and religious conditioning starts to crack and melt. It’s the chrysalis and you’re the butterfly. The butterfly has to struggle through a tiny hole to get out of the chrysalis. It takes hours. As she squeezes through the pinhole, her wet body is cleaned and dried. If you try to help her and widen the hole with your pocket knife, she will get out faster, but she will die because the water that was not squeezed out is too heavy for her delicate body to carry.

Think about that the next time your petty preference are not met or you find yourself in a swamp at midnight. It is this kind of adversity and the courage it takes to face it that produces butterflies and mature adults.

As our precious human family enters the next gruesome phase of medical techno-fascism and the rise of the bio-security state, you can be sure that the only ones who survive will be the ones who comprehended and transcended the false narratives that have been stuffed down our throats and up our asses for millennia..

We colluded with them and went along with their bullshit. Those days are over.

With love,

Robert

Marblemount, WA, USA

e-mail address shelter@nwlink.com

cell phone 360-393-5663

The facts are in. Life is Great. And infinite. This means that You are Infinite, now, not just later when you “evolve” and get “enlightened”.

“Enlightenment” and making the “journey to truth” and walking the “path to God” all sound so dramatic and important and necessary.

This is a false notion. Enlightenment isn’t the end result of some process, it’s your Condition, right now, you just don’t Recognize it. You think that ordinary human consciousness isn’t the Same Ocean as Infinite Consciousness, or God.  But it is the same, precisely the same. The ocean has both depth and surface, but it’s still One Ocean, not two.

Here is solid proof: You are aware of these words that I am writing and that you are reading. You are aware of the room you are in, and that you are alive. Your awareness of yourself is your most fundamental experience. No one could tell you any different. You know that you exist. Whatever else may be true or not true, THIS is true.

It’s completely self- evident, no one had to tell you that you are alive and aware, you didn’t need to read it in a book.

Here is my point: All you really know for sure is that you exist. Whatever the big picture is in life and the universe and time and space, is debatable and depends on your assumptions.

But, You are not an assumption! The fact that your Awareness Exists is not an assumption! You are not the end result of some process that began in the past. You are the Awareness of the process. This means that you are not a thing, an object, a mind, a body or an idea.  It is impossible to overstate the importance of facing this.

This means that you are Consciousness and I don’t mean a little tiny part of Consciousness. You are Infinite Consciousness, aware of yourself as a human being. You are what infinite Consciousness looks like when it Imagines Itself to be you.

You couldn’t be more You than you. You could not stand up a take a step towards yourself. You cannot walk a path toward God because you are God, already. You can’t wake up from a dream if you are not asleep. You are the Dreamer and the Dream, literally, not figuratively.

Infinite Consciousness goes to sleep and Dreams us. It overlooks its’ own Infinity and embraces form and limitation as an expression of Its’ Infinite Love.

This is literally true, is not merely my opinion or belief. You can see this for yourself, but there is a cost.

The cost is the refusal to make false assumptions and to be ruthlessly honest about your actual experience.

For example: When you were a child, you were aware of yourself as a child. Now, you’re an adult and are aware of yourself as an adult.

Your body and mind changed, but did the Awareness change? Isn’t the Awareness EXACTLY the same?

Yes, it is, and this is proof that You are Awareness because Awareness doesn’t change. Everything else changes except the Awareness of the change. The fact that your Awareness didn’t change is Smoking Gun evidence that You are Consciousness, not a mind in a body that is conscious. The body and mind are not conscious, only Consciousness is Conscious.

Ramana Maharshi said that Reality is like a big Lighthouse, many windows but only One Light. The windows aren’t sparks of the Light, nor do they possess Light themselves, they Conduct it and Refract it. We humans are like exquisite Stained Glass Windows in the Living Temple of Reality.

Here is another example: No matter where you are, it’s always Here. No matter what time it is, it’s always Now. Everywhere you go, there you are.

This is absolute proof that you are timeless, spaceless, eternal, universal Infinite Consciousness. Now. Not just when you “evolve” and become “enlightened”.

Recognition of your present Condition as Awareness IS enlightenment, and it is THE most basic Condition of every single individual alive today, across the entire universe.

The reason we suffer is because we have a mistaken identity. We think that our Actual Nature and Identity as Infinite Consciousness is somehow restricted to the body and mind and that we will end when the body dies, but this is not true, Consciousness is not born and does not die.

The water in the cup takes the form of the cup, but’s still water, not a cup.

Deep contemplation and honesty about the truth of your Actual Nature is profoundly authentic and effective spiritual practice because it is rooted in the truth of your actual experience as Awareness.

In this way, you will realize your wholeness, your indivisibility, your staggering unity with literally everything, as a matter of fact, not belief.

There are beliefs about Truth, but Truth Itself is not a belief. Truth is Truth. Beliefs are beliefs.

The Truth is always the Truth, whether it is recognized or not. It can be buried, ignored, forgotten, lied about and ridiculed, but it is still the Truth.

Understanding this evaporates the fear of death and replaces it with Confidence in Existence.

That Which is eternal circulates between the cycles of birth and death.

You are That.

Your human heart and the Heart of the Cosmos are synchronized.

The sino-atrial node, the so-called pacemaker on the right side of your heart, is an antennae.

An inconceivably intense Electromagnetic Current radiates from the Living Heart of Existence through the stars into our hearts.

In the Gospel of Thomas, Jesus is asked, “Who is your Father?”

He said, “MY Father is a Movement and a Rest”

Why Doubt, Disillusionment, Despair and Depression Are Gateways to Authentic Spiritual Awakening

By robert cinque

Being well adjusted to a sick society is no accomplishment;  it’s a disgrace.

The pain of doubt, disillusionment, despair and depression is extremely valuable in the same way that the pain from sticking your hand into a fire is valuable and necessary.

That’s because the infinitely deep human heart cannot be satisfied with puny things like fame, power, sex and wealth. It is appropriate for divinely human individuals to feel the 4 D’s because the infinite cannot be fulfilled by the finite.

People are depressed because they don’t know who and what they are. Their contexts and labels for themselves are way too small. They are depressed for extremely good reasons.

Those reasons should be respected, uncovered, exposed and appreciated for what they really are: the psycho-tectonic tremblings of the Infinite Heart which is Alive as all things.

You have every reason to be extremely glad that you are depressed because it means that you are vastly bigger and greater than you have ever imagined.

The depression, like the pain of the fire, motivates us to see that our thoughts, assumptions and actions are mistaken, toxic and lethal.

If you were satisfied with material things and a false identity, THAT would be a problem.

Your task is to see that you caused the depression, just like sticking your hand in the fire caused the pain. The “fire” that caused the depression is Spiritual Error.

Spiritual Error occurs when we mistake the map for the territory, or the menu for the meal.

Every one of your ideas about yourself is incorrect. That’s because you are not an idea.

You are a Presence.

Ideas spring out of Presence like maps spring out of territories. Maps are useful but they are not the Territory. You are the Territory but you overlook this and call your Presence a body, mind and self in a world in a universe.

While you are intimately associated with the body/mind/self, you are not identical to it, anymore than a movie screen is identical to the images projected onto it. You are the Light of Awareness that shines through the projector of body and mind. This is what produces time and space.

The body refracts Presence into space;  the mind refracts Presence into time.

You are the Light, the Projector, the Stage, the Images and the Audience.

We imagine ourselves to be the mind in a body in the world and that’s true, but its not the Whole Picture.

You are the Whole Picture. You are One Presence, unchanged by whatever you are Present to.

You are like a mirror which is unchanged by whatever it reflects.

Failure to understand this results in depression, thank God.

Use your depression for what it is intended for. It is not a “condition” that needs to be “treated”.

It is a Sacred Message, just like the pain the hand feels in the fire. That pain is not a “condition” either, it’s extremely valuable information.

Depression is what happens when what you want is too small, or who you think you are is some puny, cornball, cheesy, cardboard map, a cartoon version of your Infinite Heart.

You can prove this to yourself simply and directly. Turn your attention to the one who is depressed, the one who is aware of the depression. You are not a body/mind that is depressed;  You are the Awareness of the body/mind that is depressed.

Become curious about that One. Pay attention to that One. Deeply contemplate the Wonder and the Mystery and the Gargantuan Magnificence of that One.

In this way, You will be restored to your True Identity as Infinite Love and Happiness and you will see that you are not merely the objects of your Awareness, but Awareness Itself.

The depression is an inevitable artifact of an identity that is incorrect.

The solution is to take your hand out of the fire of false ideas, cultural conditioning, scientific materialism and religious superstition.

This is the story of the Prodigal Son, who spends all his life energy pursuing gratification and love in all the wrong places, then drags his penniless, ravaged self back to his Father, who welcomes him with open arms.

“When I looked for myself, I found God. When I looked for God, I found myself”

Rumi

That’s because they are identical.

Give up the idea of being a separate self in a mind, in a body, in a world.

Embrace the Truth of your moment to moment experience of and as, Awareness and notice that it PRECEDES objects and ideas. All of your experiences, perceptions, thoughts and ideas are appearing in your Awareness, like clouds in the Sky.

The Sky is not affected by the clouds, nor by their absence.

Awareness is not affected by body and mind, nor by their absence.

The only thing that doesn’t change is the Awareness of the change.

When your body dies, absolutely nothing with change for You.

You will experience its death and will be amused that You used to think that it was You.

Your Actual Nature is Infinite Love and Happiness, but it got buried under mountains and centuries of false assumptions.

It’s buried, yes. But it’s still the Truth.

Dig It Up.

This is a feast for the heart, must see

robert

By robert cinque

For countless millennia, we humans have assumed that God created the Universe and everything in it and is directing the course of human events from Heaven. Many people believe that God is orchestrating events and working out a Plan of Salvation for a Fallen Race.

This is an error. God is not in charge. If God were in charge, He would have to be removed, re-called, sanctioned, silenced and fired from His job due to Criminal Negligence, Moral Malfeasance, Spiritual Malpractice, Extortion, Fraud,  and Murder.

After all, those who are in charge are responsible for what happens on their watch. This means that God is responsible for all the wars, murders, rapes, abortions and suffering in this world and all others.

It is a relief to me to know that God is not in charge because, if He were, I would have to go have a long talk with Him about His behavior and how His actions are causing great harm.

The Bad News is not that God is not in charge.

The Bad News is that WE ARE in charge.

It’s not actually bad news, It’s good news, its just that this means that WE need to be talked to about our behavior.

We need someone to sit us down, slap our face and kick our ass.

That’s because we molest Life with our puny thoughts about God and Each Other. We are Spiritual Pedophiles and Brats who rape Beauty and Innocence with our Shitty Ideas.

What did Nature ever do to you except to bring you Life, Light and Love?

Why do we assume that Nature hates us? Why do we insist that we are not responsible FOR and TO our Presence? How is it possible that human race looks like an autistic brain damaged, homeless child? We stagger around like refugees in our own Land.

I used to be like this. I used to think that it was Gods fault that things were so terrible here on Earth. Why wouldn’t I think this? He’s in charge, right?

Wrong.

I am in charge and so are you.

I am in charge of my Attention and where I put it. I am in charge of what and how I think and what I do with it. I am responsible for every thought, word and action and their consequences are my responsibility too.

When I think thoughts like “I’m a separate thing in a fallen world in which I am going to die and God has me by the balls so I’d better be a good boy so I don’t go to hell” I create a world that fits my Spiritual Malware. When I install this gunk and junk into my Glorious and Spectacular Operating System, my Light is extinguished and I have to feel my way through the dark forest of fear and despair and confusion.

The Good News is that Only God Exists.

Not fake gods, not tin horn gods, not tribal overlords, not psychopathic monsters who send you to hell if you disobey.

Real God True God Life God Love God is what exists but we have installed Shitware into our Radiant Operating System.

Our body/mind/self is a fractal, a scale version of the Infinite Radiance called God.

We do not exist in a fallen state, we ignore our Actual State which makes it look like it doesn’t exist.

Our Actual state is prior to what appears in it and to it. Our actual state is a conscious awareness of whatever appears to it. The mirror is not affected by what it reflects. The hardware is not changed by the software.

We are the Hardware. In our infinite freedom, we choose the software.

So far in the history of humankind, we have been installing absolute garbage software.

Our task is to notice this and remove it.

A drunk stumbles out of a bar and walks down the street with one foot on the curb, one foot in the gutter. He’s crying his eyes out and a man passes by and asks him, Sir, Why are you walking with one foot in the gutter?

The man looks down, then looks up and says, Is that I am doing? I thought I was crippled!

Since ancient times, countless brave captains of mighty ships have faced their fears and sailed out, onto the vast oceans, using their compass and astrolabe to navigate. For centuries, they were perplexed and confused by the enormous difference between magnetic north and True North. Their compass pointed to magnetic north so they followed it but ended up hundreds of miles off course.

They read their compass correctly;  the problem was that they did not know there was a big difference between True North and magnetic north.

Magnetic North

Magnetic North changes. True North doesn’t. That’s the difference.

The Analogy is this: True North is the White Hot Core of Radiant Existence, the Passionate Field of Life Energy, the Gloriously Illuminated Sphere of Bright Love, in and as all beings, even poor little ole you and me, the cat, the bugs, everything.

Magnetic north is the TV land of sitcoms, News and Snooze , fake reality, zero love.

True North is the Red- Blooded,  White Hot, Super Sexy, Sweating, Swooning  Passion of Heartfelt Intimacy between Part and Whole, Consciousness and Matter, Self and God.

Magnetic north is a joke, a distraction from This, the Real.

Magnetic north is everything in your life that is not stable. It shifts. It moves, often at the worst moments. Its quicksand, cannot be trusted. It’s fake news and junk science.

Discard it.

True North is Love, your Very Essence.

Therefore:

Trust Life, NOT the counterfeits of It, sold to you by the Pimpocracy.

Trust Life.

Then, Show Up as Love and Energy.

OK?

Countless births—and deaths—occur every day across our planet and the universe beyond.
Yet, Life continues to arise. Therefore, death is no threat to Life.
If one could stand back far enough, the universe would look like a bright light, with flames and tongues of fire: individuals.
Imagine every individual as a tongue of fire, or a filament in a light bulb that conducts energy, heat and light.
The light bulb burns out, the energy that conducts itself through it doesn’t.
We are that energy. Our hearts, minds and bodies are the circuit: bright lights on two legs.
The relationship between the bodymindself and the Light is so close, so intimate, it’s hard to tell them apart. In fact, it’s impossible to tell them apart.

The ecstatic intimacy between part and whole, self and God, matter and consciousness is a staggering wonder to behold.
Your awareness in this moment, and always, is perfectly coherent with the Awareness, the Aliveness Which conducts itself throughout the galactic body of the universe. The Ocean of Existence is made from Living Light: Self Conscious Aliveness.
The stars and galaxies are neurons in the Quantum Brain, the planets are Gardens of Delight. Individuals are literal Temples of God.
This is completely Obvious, on every scale.
Each human individual is a tiny fractal of That Which Is Alive As All Things.
Every person’s actual identity is this Light (Love).
A human is a sun, a star, a Tongue of God’s Flame.
The question is, Why is this fact not at the center of world culture?
Why do human beings give away their birthright for a bowl of porridge?
How is it possible on a planet so spectacularly beautiful as Earth, with gloriously, exquisitely gorgeous human beings all over it, to routinely, chronically miss the Obvious?
Life is Beautiful. Life is Love. Why is there so little understanding of this in our world?
My answer is We never get over the shock of birth, of suddenly showing up as a vulnerable individual in a chaotic world, and dramatize abandonment and victimhood, ad infinitum.
We play Poor Me/ Fuck You with a vengeance. We indulge in self-pity, then blame others for our sorry plight.
That’s why we don’t grow up. We remain childish, emotionally and spiritually.
Like children, we rely on mommydaddygod to tell us what’s true.
Our not-so-hidden rage at our self- imposed enslavement destroys and prevents equanimity and equilibrium.
Now, we need a savior.
The problem in this world is not a virus, not dictatorial governments, not banking cartels who stole our currency.
The problem is the mentality of slaves who believe what they are told and don’t take responsibility for finding out what’s true and being loyal to it.

Finding out that my life has been based upon lie after lie is sickening and painful. I threw up, like Neo in the movie The Matrix, when he discovered that his so called life was a dream, a nightmare of horrors, lie upon lie.

His awakening was bloody and painful. He did not greet it with a smile, he had to recover from it, his own awakening! The truth is so massive, so crushing, no one can endure its weight.

The Truth literally crushes you to death, and that is why Awakening is about It, not “me”. Your identity as a separate entity will not survive the journey to enlightenment. The Truth hurts, but it’s still the Truth, still Life Giving. There is no need for beliefs when you have the Truth, or rather, when It has you.

In our world, it’s not only the tyrants who lie their asses off, it’s the priests and doctors too, unwitting administrators of torture and falsehood. They promote lies they sincerely believe.

But does the truth care about my beliefs about it? No. Do my ideas affect the truth? No.

Maps are not the Territory. Menus are not the Meal.

Eat the Real, Live the Territory.

The Territory is the Radiant Conscious Field of Intelligent Light, the Impossible Wonder of the Presence of Life. The Meal is the ecstatic Whole Body Enjoyment of this undeniable Truth: the entirety of Reality Itself is your most fundamental identity now, we are absolutely inherently identical to Whatever the Fuck It Is that became us, little ole you and me, go figure. When we finally come to grips with the mind shattering reality of our Actual Condition, now, we will be able to manage our lives and this planet without conflict.

The Map is a compilation of our scientifically materialistic, religiously psychotic, politically constipated, culturally anemic ideas about It. Our job is to move from the Map to the Territory.

In my last essay, Whatever Destroyed the Towers Could Power the Planet, I identified 3 lies, 3 social memes that infect the body of Humanity and regulate its behavior just as surely as our genes rule our bodies.

Here is one more, the most basic lie of all, the one that most enables our domination by the Matrix.

Ego.

The so-called ego is born from an assumption. It is not an entity, but a belief in one, a belief in a separate self, one that is marooned on an island of flesh. Belief in the ego is the result of a confusion about uniqueness, where individuation becomes the equivalent of separation. The ego is a belief, a primitive superstition, a cult of one, an emotional recoil dramatized as abandonment and betrayal. Every ego is a fundamentalist, a fascist, and a tyrant in a drama of perpetrator/victim. I call it the Poor me/Fuck you syndrome.

The truth is, I don’t have an ego and neither do you! We have a belief in ego, an assumption about our state that has no basis in Reality itself. A belief in something doesn’t make it true, no matter how devout we are, no matter how dedicated we may be to that belief. Pious devotion to falsehood turns people into fools. When you unpack your “self” and all its contents, it turns out to be just a pile of old books and dirty laundry.

The One who did the unpacking, That’s Who I Am. You too.

There is only one Reality, not two. The One became the “two”. Still, no “objects” actually exist, only Consciousness Exists. You are That, showing up like a Fish in the Ocean.

You are the Ocean, the Fish, and the Observer, all at once. How can this be? No one knows.

It just is.

You showed up out of nowhere because two people you didn’t even know had sex, now you’re an expert on everything because of all the great things you believe in. The problem is, you don’t know jack shit and not only that, you don’t know that you don’t know jack shit, a very dangerous situation. It’s important to know when you are confused. Well, I’m telling you. You’re confused, you don’t know jack shit and neither do I. That’s our situation. All we know is what we think we know. Reality Itself is unknowable, because finite minds, local space/time perspectives on the Whole just don’t cut it! How could they? This sounds like really bad news because if I can’t know It and I don’t know jack shit, how can I survive? How can I control things?

This question and the answer we provide is the birth of the so-called separate self, the “ego”.

The separate self is born when I imagine myself to be threatened by the awesome forces of birth and change and death. The appropriate heart response to this Infinite Current is a Gasp That Takes My Breath Away, not fear, not doubt, not withdrawal. That’s right. Who am I to judge or criticize or condemn Life? What the Fuck do I know?

Once I recognize my profound ignorance in the face of Infinite Life, I suddenly, unexpectedly, become identified with It, bonded to It, not separate from It. My knowledge about It ceases to be an obstruction to its Fierce Power and I see that It is not an “Object”, not “other”, and that I am not only inherently intimate with It, I am It, It is “me”. It’s a profound, mysterious and terribly passionate Love Affair, in which I am happy to Drown.

It is my true identity, not “me”. The “me” suddenly becomes weightless, transparent, and extremely sensitive to literally everything.

Enlightenment is perfect non- obstruction to the White Hot Core of the Living Current and results in a deeply felt emotional sensitivity to literally everything, a vulnerability to and passion for Whatever the Fuck It Is. I don’t know What It is, all I know is that I love It, I am in Awe of it, I trust It, I align myself with It, beyond and before the mind and its ideas. I am prior to the mind, a realization which makes the mind useful, otherwise, it’s a real bitch, as you know, your mind and everyone else’s. This is what Jean-Paul Sartre meant when he said “Hell is other people”, the basis of his play, Nausea. Hell is “me” and “you” grotesque and monstrous impersonations of our Real Condition, a Frankenstein run amuck in the Kingdom of the Real, the Infinite Heart of Love.

But, instead of mystical euphorias and other caricatures of enlightenment, you get complicated and painful ordeals of the heart. Instead of gleeful happiness and “fulfillment” you get a bleeding, oozing wound that never heals. Instead of glamorous rewards for your search for God, you get the utter destruction of the searcher.

This is not what I expected.

I thought I would be adorned in shining robes and bathed in light when I became enlightened, but I am being crucified on this cross of light and dark. Still, I do not suffer, even though Awakening really hurts. How can this be? Pain without suffering? What? Yes. How can this be? I do not know. All I know is that I trust the excruciating Pain. Do you? Or do you turn it into blame and self pity?

Now, as a result of recovering from your illusions about yourself, your Actual Condition at Infinity becomes painfully clear. You start to become animated, humorous, and irreverent. You poke fun at very serious issues and you crack jokes about really painful subjects. People can’t understand you, what the fuck is wrong with you?

You woke up, that’s what.

Now, you have to deal with it. So do they. Their job will be much easier than yours though, because they can just ignore you or write you off as a nutcase. They would be exactly correct. According to the rules of this world, you are a nutcase, thank heaven.

Your true, actual, always already existing identity, is not a separate self, but the very One Who Is Alive As All Things. You are That, me too. The ego idea is a preposterous and ridiculous lie, an assumption, not an “entity” that needs to be overcome. No such entity exists, never has, never could, it’s impossible. Stop making the presumption of egoity, and your life will get better, stronger, more fundamentally true and alive. This is not a prescription for a real disease, only for an imaginary one, but one with real and deadly consequences.

Overcome your belief in a separate self, then, What is already true, What has always been the Case, will become perfectly Obvious. The Truth is the Truth, now. Also, our Singularity as a species has always existed, it’s just that it has been overtaken by ego insane ideas, just like our personal identities.

Our job is to restore our sanity, our personal and common humanity, by recognizing what is absolutely, fundamentally true: one, singular Consciousness is the nature of Reality. There is no inherent problem with Existence, no dilemma, no threat. All things, all worlds and universes are absolutely coherent and perfectly coincide with the Eternal Radiant Transcendental Being of Existence Itself, the Person of Love. Creating problems where none exist is the ego hell of ordinary life. It is arbitrary and unnecessary. Ego belief is easily transformed when the nature of Reality becomes apparent. Whirlpools don’t exist without a River. The bodymindself is a whirlpool that becomes an ego when it can’t Find the River.

This is the same message as the Original Gospel of Jesus: prior, already existing unity with the Divine Reality, and is the very message that got him killed. The world is based on the ego lie of separation which necessitates salvation schemes and atonement rituals which Jesus routinely condemned in public. They strung him up as quickly as possible and crucified him as a dangerous heretic. Later, he became the poster boy for blood sacrifice. This is an example of how the Truth is weaponized. Jesus had great credibility among the people, he was intensely loved, he was the greatest mouthpiece the Pharisees and Rome could ever hope for, so he became the “Lamb of God who takes away the sins of the world”. In this way, the ego lie was kept in place and Jesus was used like a nail in that coffin.

The ego lie is the most fundamental premise of the world, which is why we have scientific materialism, the idea that consciousness comes from the brain, and religious superstition which imagines parental deities who must be placated and obeyed, a clearly childish context. An adult context would be heart felt love communion with That, not mommy-daddy appeasement rituals.

Humanity is like a child who has been severely used and abused. Our task is to recover from the lies we believed and the abuse we both endured and participated in and enabled. We must mature in this way on both a personal and a planetary level.

We can do it and we must.

by robert cinque

Posted on January 9, 2011

Who am I to criticize Life?  By what standard could I possible measure or evaluate the universe, that tiny speck of infinite existence?

By what criteria do I criticize Life?  This seems like a ridiculous question, given that I am always critical and act as if I know best, of course I would criticize Life, it’s what got me into this messy world of pain and suffering in the first place, right?  I have a right to be critical, don’t I?

Yes, but its far better to open up and face a much more important question:  What is my relationship to Life?  How do I feel about being here?  Do I trust it, or am I suspicious, bitter, and withdrawn?

In my casual ego mind, I am emotionally withdrawn, absent, shut down, bewildered, and confused.  I endlessly complain about my plight in this world and am ungrateful.  The ugly truth is that I routinely default on myself and others and on Life itself.  Life doesn’t betray me, I betray it.  I entertain thoughts dripping in self pity and abandonment, I rape Life with these thoughts, then blame the bitch.  Life gets raped and blamed for it.  Now, I am choking to death, but by my own hand.  This is good news because if it’s my hand, then  I can remove it myself, don’t need anything or anyone else to do it for me. 

That is the first Office of Authentic Spiritual Practice.

The second Office is when I sit down and shut the fuck up in the Face of the Cosmic Enormity of Life, and recognize Its’ Innocent, Fierce, Infinite, egoless Nature, my truest self.  I stop disassociating emotionally into my fantasies of separateness from this Great Lover and vomit out all the repression, the avoidance, the trauma of imagined disease and get into Bed.

The Brilliant, Unbroken, seamless Presence of Life circulating through all creation, the Current that oscillates between the cycles of birth and death, through infinite stretches of fathomless space, that one, that Very One, is the Only Existing Reality and I am completely, always, already inherently one with It, just like a whirpool in a River. It could not possibly be any other way.  There is only One Life living all things and I’m it.  You, too.  When we meet on that level, big things happen, because ego, the dramatization of betrayal and abandonment has been made obsolete by Noticing and Being Intimate with the Great Wonder.

When the whirlpool sees the River and its place in it, it swoons and falls intoxicated into bed like a lover, ready, willing, able, open, fully engaged, deeply pleasurized, intensely passionate.

 He and She become Me and back again. What?

To contemplate That for 1/1000 of a second is enough to completely blow your mind forever.  You and toast suddenly have a lot in common.  You are overwhelmed with brilliant Light.  Your ideas about yourself start to shimmer and evaporate and you can’t remember who you used to be.  Or why.  Your humor and freedom are restored, you realize that you are not just breathing, you are being breathed by a great Power, big difference. You offend others with truly funny jokes about really painful subjects.  You realize that you don’t know jack shit after all and its all very amusing, what’s for lunch?

Now, you are aware of the Elephant on your foot.  It hurts.  God becomes man, even you and me. The infinite Life consents to be you and me and everything else, fully surrendered to us all, and I miss it.  The Word becomes flesh.  The infinity of Life fractalizes into mortal human beings who are all going to die.  Everything you ever loved is going to disappear. 

Still, the Current of Life and Matter are lovers.  Consciousness adores Matter.  Matter swoons in the Presence of Life, is organized into complex forms which struggle to keep up with the Rampant Imagination of Free Intelligence, the Ocean in which we swim.

Its impossible to be infinite and mortal at the same time, but here you are anyway. 

Its impossible for anything to exist, too.  Existence either had to either always be here or it had to come into existence from nowhere, both complete impossibilities.  But here we are anyway.

Knee buckling, jaw dropping, staggering Awe constantly stares us in the face, in fact, it is our face. It’s so Obvious, we miss it, and create hell on earth.  Now, since hell is well established and we are no longer in charge of ourselves, we need saviours and tyrants to rescue us.  We empower them by our default on ourselves.  We volunteer for suffering by worshipping our maps, condemning other’s maps, and ignoring the Territory

Authentic spiritual practice begins with this:  Recognizing my emotional recoil from the Incandescent Event of Existence and overcoming it by being responsible for it.  Spiritual practice has exactly nothing to do with beliefs, it has everything to do with the moral obligation to face the truth, to face Reality, to tell the truth about my lies, to own my own refusal to be that which I so obviously am:  the full bodied, red blooded incarnation of Infinite Life.    

This is an ordeal, coming to terms with the simultaneity of my infinite and mortal nature.  It’s an impossible, contradictory situation, but here I am anyway.  When I make friends with it and stop making it into a problem, my eyesight clears up, the Obvious is now Noticed, this is simply the Way God Is.  Coming to terms means staring into the Paradox long enough for the light and heat to burn through the rational and metaphysical assumptions I constantly plaster onto Life, ideas like “consciousness comes from random neurons firing in the brain” (scientific materialism) and “the stain of Original Sin separates Man from God”.  These completely unfounded and theoretical assumptions  reduce life to the level of a concentration camp. 

We are not isolated individuals, we share a dynamic unity with literally everything.  Scientism, the religion of science, as well as religious fundamentalism are maps masquerading as Territory.  It doesn’t matter if the whole world worships at their feet, all maps are only the menu, not the Meal.. 

My ideas about life are not equivalents to Life Itself.  No map ever could be equal to the territory it describes.  In addition, the maps I make are almost entirely based on the finite perspective of the whirlpool, and not the River Itself. 

The “perspective” of the River is intuitively felt in the whirlpool’s center as the Radiant Core of Existence, the Infinitely Intense Current of the Heart, to which every sub-atomic particle, every galactic infinity, is intimately connected.  This is not figuratively true, but literally.  There are no separate islands in all the universes, not one.

When human culture is based on the Recognition and Appreciation and Exploration of this Wonder, this Impossible Treasure, when we as individuals and nations overcome our recoil, our lack of confidence in Life, in Actual God, we will return to the disposition of the Radiant Core and humanity will become  the birthplace of Real Life,  not materialistic, industrialized consumerism and disaster capitalism, not fundamentalism and fascism.  Tyrants will be laughed off the planet, having no exploitable hosts to dominate. Priests will go broke for lack of work.  The searing Obviousness of Utter Unity with all Life will overwhelm the petty differences within the human family and profound gratitude for and empathy with all others will be the dominant social meme planet wide.  This will come about when Reality is met on it’s own terms and is no longer held hostage in the dungeons of ego mind.   That will be accomplished when we have had quite enough of self strangulation, capitulation to lies, collusion with sabateurs, empowerment of tyrants, belief in false gods and completely wake up to the liberating Facts of Life:  we share the nature of That which originated us, which isFree, Self Existing, and Radiant, Intelligent Light. We are not orphans born in sin.  We are inherently blissful incarnations of love and truth (Reality) radiant fractals of eternal Light, now as always. Go figure.

This cause for great celebration.  The recognition of this Fact by all of humanity will unleash the most powerful forces ever seen on planet Earth.  This is the only revolution that works, identifying what is fundamentally True and living in alignment with It.  I’m not talking about my version of the truth, or yours, but Truth Itself, the Living Reality of Conscious Light.  When I am clear about That and my actual relationship with It, everything else falls into place.

(December 28, 2017)

I am sorry to interrupt anyone’s comfort zone, but I have some extremely disturbing news:

Reality is a complete Mystery. It is unknowable. Unexplainable. It’s not that it is “not yet known”. It is forever unknown and unknowable.

I didn’t say that this was “bad news”. I said that it is disturbing news. Personally, I think it’s Great News, just painful, disturbing to one’s sacred cows and hidden assumptions.

Reality, whatever it is altogether, is not a belief, an illusion, a trick of the mind. Reality is Truth Itself. Existence Itself. We don’t know what that is either.

Truth and Reality are not beliefs. Beliefs are what we say about Reality and Truth.

Truth is not relative, either. It doesn’t change. It doesn’t evolve. It Exists.

Truth has nothing to do with belief. Beliefs are projections onto Truth.

Truth is unknowable. Just like Reality Itself.

What you think you know, is just belief.

Even if your beliefs are accurate, even if you believe that something is true and it is, doesn’t mean that you know what anything IS. We name it, we invent things with it, but What the Fuck is it, anyway?

The best answer I know of is this: Awareness. Intelligence, Light. Conscious, Living Light that appears and disappears endlessly through eternal cycles of birth and death.

Do you have a problem with that? Do you withdraw from That?

Many people, most of us, do. Life is painful. We withdraw into ideas, strategies, self pity, anything that provides relief, distraction, pleasure. We suffer when we withdraw and so we seek relief.

But, openness to this Paradox, your Actual Situation at Infinity does not produce suffering, ego, or “me against the world”. Openness conducts the infinite power of Existence. Withdrawal leaves you with about 20 horsepower.

It’s not rocket science to understand that the Current, That Which is Alive as All Things, is inconceivably Powerful.

The question is, What is my relationship with it? It’s an emotional question. Do I trust it in my gut? Or do I dramatize rejection and abandonment and blame everybody?

Am I a Lover with this Great Beauty? Or am I a whiny pain in the ass?

This question, What is My Relationship with Infinite Being? and its’ answer is the most important decision to make, bar none. That’s because everything that flows from one or the other answer is determined by that answer, 100%.

If you live a life of a self enclosed me trying to survive, you’re gonna suffer because “you” and your idea about yourself is not going to survive. Ideas end. You don’t.

If you’re Open to the Situation without Flinching, then you are qualified to Conduct It.

Heartfelt true openness to the Mysterious Domain of Truth and Reality is the demand.

You can’t meditate, or medicate your way in. You already ARE “in”, you’re just lost in your cultural and spiritual delusions, and the confusion between “Individuated Light” and “me”.

There is only this Light. “You” and “me” are playful DNA circuits that Conduct It.

It is literally true that nothing exists except light. Matter comes from light, and back again. It’s not a problem until we make it into one. Repentance from sin means exactly the refusal to turn this Mystery and Wonder into a problem, to close down, to withdraw emotionally into doubt and fear.

Beliefs have nothing to do with Reality. Reality (Truth) is beyond belief. And before belief.

Belief is a golden calf, a false god.

Ordinary ego religion is a false god because the ego, “me” self idea is false.

You are an individual, not a self. A self is a thing, a separate object.

You are not a thing.

You are an infinite and Mysterious Presence appearing in and as an apparent individual.

There is only one Self, one Intelligence, one Reality, the True Self of all beings, masquerading as “you” and “me”.

Sorry to dispel your illusions about yourself, but you don’t know jack shit, and neither do I.

That’s our situation as born beings, individuals. We show up out of nowhere and appear as Joe. Nancy. The cat.

Now what? Usually, we are scared shitless and run like hell.

A very understandable reaction.

For Infinite Conscious Intelligent Awareness to suddenly show up as freckles and skinny legs is shocking, bewildering, frightening.

And, just because you believe God made the world and you’re going to heaven if you follow the rules and obey the instructions he gave us, doesn’t mean it’s true.

How do you know it’s true? You believe it. You read it in a book your ancestors gave you. You trust the source. It’s benevolent. It has to be true. God is love and he has a plan of salvation involving the Jews and the Crucifixion of Christ for the sins of Mankind.

This sounds really, really good because the world has lost its’ mind and we need salvation from sin.

As a former fundamental Christian Evangelist and graduate of 2 seminaries, I am going to tell you why this is not true. It’s not that I’m so smart and have degrees and “know the truth”.It’s because I realized Truth is unknowable and that my, your, and everyone’s beliefs come from an idea: the self idea.

When I conceive of myself as a separate thing, an object in a world that God made, then Nature, God, and everyone become…separate from each other. Divided. Conflicted.

Reality is not divided. Reality is Singular, Coherent. Not fragmented into billions and trillions of separate parts. There are no separate parts. Separate parts are impossible in a Singular Unity.

Life (God) is a Singular Unity and you couldn’t be separate from It no matter how hard you tried. You can believe you’re separate, but it doesn’t make it true.

There is no evidence whatsoever that you are a separate being living on your own 20 horsepower. None.

There is a gargantuan pile of evidence that you are being lived by a Great Power that you misconstrue as an other. It is not an other. There are no others.

There is only one Singular Mystery that is truly Great and breathtakingly Beautiful.

You don’t have to know what it is to love it.

You don’t have to cram it into your provincial models and maps to access It.

You don’t have to access it. You ARE it.

I can prove it. The ego self, however, can only prove its’ own premise and cite books it wrote as “proof”.

That’s called circular reasoning. You can’t make a definition and prove it with the same definition.

You can’t say God gave the land to the Jews because it says so in a book you wrote.

This is where the “Painful Realization” part comes in.

You realize that you are the creator of your beliefs. You chose the criteria, you cite the authorities. You believed in what you considered to be true. Then, comes the destruction of all of it because it was based on a false premise, the idea of a separate self. If you blow up the central support in a skyscraper, the whole thing comes down.

There is no thing left standing. The Good News about this is that You remain. Not ego you. You You. You are not a thing, some cheesy object of awareness.

You are Awareness Itself.This is the Original Gospel of Jesus: utter, profound, intimate unity with God, as the Very Condition of Existence. To sin is to deny this, according to Jesus of Nazareth.

Did you miss that part in your reading of the New Testament? If so, it’s probably because it was buried and ignored in favor of the Judaic plan of salvation through blood sacrifice and the scapegoating of the innocent for the sake of the guilty, a crime that continues to this day, all in the name of a merciful god.

This is THE Number One Worst Idea in the History of the World.

Monsters with scriptures want to convince you that you are separate from Life (God) and that you are defective. You need rescuing, salvation. Because you’re such a disobedient asshole and all, you need to work for a living and eat shit because your parents disobeyed God. Because he is so merciful, he sends his Beloved Son to take the blame for your sorry ass.

The idea of Original Sin is a Shock and Rescue psy-op. Beat ‘em up, come to the rescue.

I am here to tell you: there is nothing ugly or shameful about you and you don’t need rescuing, you need eyeglasses that see through the slop and the filth of Spiritual Lies like the Loathsome and Dreadful Original Sin.

If you can convince people that God is a murderous psychopath who praises Abraham for being willing to murder Isaac and who murders his own Son for the sake of irresponsible children who won’t grow up, then you can justify anything. Murder. Rape. Genocide.

One has only to look at Israel and the Middle East for proof.

Or into one’s own heart of darkness and our routine betrayal of Life.