Shelter comes from the need for sanctuary and protection from the wildness of Nature. Shelter is our second body, driven into existence by hunger and the need for warmth and safety. Her storms, winds and temperatures compel us to build a space to cook food and be human together. The obstacles She presents ultimately strengthen and help us to build relationships and community.

At Organic Shelter, we study and copy Nature and Her ways. We notice that every creature builds their home; it is only we humans who hire expensive contractors to do the job. This is understandable given the exorbitant costs, fees, permits, licenses and mortgages involved. Plus, it can be intimidating to build your own home considering numerous structural and safety standards that must be met.

Nevertheless, carpenters and skilled craftsman do build their own homes. But what about people with no building experience? What about them? Can they build their own home? Can they build their own custom home with no building skills or experience?

Yes.

As a former contractor with over 40 years of ongoing building experience, I built homes for people who could not do it for themselves. For this I was grateful because I needed to support myself and my family. Yet I soon noticed that the amount of money my clients had to pay to me, the bank, and to the county in order to have a place to live, often left them seriously in debt and exhausted by the time they moved in. Noticing this changed everything for me.

I realized it made more sense to have my clients become the contractor when building their home even when they had no experience.

Here’s why:

Building your own home is empowering. It saves tons of money; you get it the way you want it, and it reflects you and who you say you are. As the owner/contractor, you are responsible for (and to) your vision of what’s possible. Building your own shelter, growing food and cultivating a deep connection with Nature is an act of love. By becoming the owner/contractor you are also empowered because you are actively participating in the Greatness of Existence.

Organic Shelters grow organically. They start out as an idea, a possibility. They attract the light and set down roots. Conceived in your heart, an Organic Shelter germinates and grows. Nature and our ancestors serve to guide us through the Organic Shelter building process. Our goal for your home is to build the best, most beautiful and affordable Organic Shelter possible.

With me as builder and co-conspirator in your project, we navigate the waters that once were the exclusive domain of architects, engineers, contractors, counties, inspectors and banks. We exceed all state and county codes with excellent design, and carefully chosen materials, while also taking responsibility for structural integrity and safety.

How do you envision the Shelter and sanctuary of your dreams?

Cultivate the vision. Let it talk to you. Listen

About Me

I dropped out of graduate school in 1976 and started building a geodesic greenhouse rooftop hydroponic garden in Nashville, Tennessee, because I was working as a cook at the Black-eyed Pea Restaurant and needed lots of fresh vegetables. I figured why should we buy them when we can grow them ourselves? I didn’t manage to actually build the greenhouse and instead went to Kansas City where I worked with visionary architect Matt Taylor. He put me in charge of his Ecosphere project, a spherical. geodesic, greenhouse-bio-shelter and micro-farm that was designed like a biological cell in order to function as a producer of food and energy.

I worked also with the great Sunray Kelley for 30 years experimenting with many types of building methods. In 1993 Sunray and I built the Forrest House on Orcas Island, Washington, (photo at beginning) Our finished projects included the Cascadian Farm Organic Fruit Stand in Rockport, WA, and many other wild-hearted works.

Additionally, we built the Birdsview Brewery located in the “American Alps” at the foothills of the Pacific Northwest’s Skagit Valley. Over the years, National Geographic, MTV, and Better Homes and Gardens featured our Shelters which represent the Greening of Architecture, a movement I consider to be the most important development since the Industrial Revolution.

Work with Me

Now I build custom homes, yurts, tree houses and tiny homes that come with living roofs and decks.

My clients assume the role and function of contractor for their building project. I request this because you are the one with the greatest investment in your vision and the project. You also are the one with the most responsibility for its success. As the owner/contractor you have the power and control over all aspects of the project, and can fire me any time you want. We have no binding contract, only an honorable agreement as professionals to work together.

In meeting the project’s requirements the owner/contractor and the builder both need to be capable and willing to define and assume complete responsibility for their roles. We agree to work with any situation that arises in a way that solves problems quickly, efficiently and effectively. Virtually all building projects have surprises and unexpected developments that can be challenging and difficult. People who spend money and time on a project expect positive results, and when something is missed or mistakes are made, we will need to agree on a method to solve the problem.

I keep my rates unusually low to help my clients keep their costs down, and I don’t carry insurance. Instead, I rely on myself and my clients to pay close attention to the needs of the project, to work hard and smart, and to mediate any and all conflicts that may arise within our relationship. No third party litigation, no law suits, only mediation if we can’t solve the problem between ourselves.

This is my disclaimer since builders are easy targets when things don’t go as planned. If I make a mistake, I will correct it on my time and use it to the project’s advantage, whenever possible.

I have never been fired, only promoted: all of my clients are now friends who recommend me to their friends. Nor have I ever advertised over my 40 years of building projects on a very regular basis.

There are three ways to access my experience and expertise for your building project. Throughout the duration of building your home, I am likely to participate in each of these three positions.

(1) Design: $100 hour

I draw plans for many of my clients.

Some people suggest that I have artistic talent as a designer and builder. I reply that it’s more accurate to say that I am a thief and a plagiarist! I steal Nature’s ideas routinely and marvel at Her intelligence and elegance of design while copying Her every chance I get. All my ideas come through me, not from me; I take no credit for the greatness and beauty of life that inspires me deeply. The love and beauty of Nature results in beautiful ideas, forms and the perfect nests for Her creatures.

The home we build throbs with the life-blood of Nature. She is our heart and where our soul loves to be. That makes design the domain we enter on our knees, on our face. That’s right. The awe inspiring majesty of Nature is the reflection of our human heart. Building homes and cities that respect and reflect Her majesty is long overdue..

I advocate the no-permit, no mortgage, no license, no inspection building process. We can submit plans to the county and get a permit too, if you want. I do it both ways but my overwhelming preference is to do it privately. You choose.

(2) Consultation: $45 hour

If I can’t be there at your project, I can still consult for you and will request a retainer so as to be available as much as possible to answer all your calls. This is especially effective when the client sends me close-up snapshots with their questions.  

(3) Hands-on: $65/hour

This is when I show up in the flesh with my truck and tools. I typically request payment weekly, or a payment arrangement that we otherwise agree to before the project begins.

Additional Important Information

As a builder, I have had to learn the fundamental principles of structure and process. The laws of Nature are so magnificent and precise, how we build can be no less. I take my relationship with my clients very seriously and I am accountable and committed to creating real, lasting value. The clear, well-defined boundaries and responsibilities we establish for ourselves will support and protect us all.

Please feel free to contact me, I look forward to hearing from you

360 393 5663

shelter@nwlink.com

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American household but realized that cultivating a life in community (both human and non human) was necessary. During the Covid-19 shutdowns, instead of turning to fear or anger I began demolishing and rebuilding an old cabin in Alger, WA. Robert helped for a generous 8 weekends teaching me about building and about life. During that time I was also in school at Western Washington University finishing a degree in Environmental Studies. Robert helped in so many ways and I consider him an elder and a teacher. He’s an incredibly hard worker and has genius ideas on how to build with a budget and with scraps and salvage wood. the process of Building changed my life and my perspective; it taught me lessons about life overall.

Marissa Wall marissawall@icloud.com

Do you really think that the way you treat yourself and others escapes Notice?

Do you really think that nothing matters? That you can act with impunity? As if what you think, say and do has no meaning or consequence?

This essay is designed to demonstrate how every single thing we do and don’t do expresses our not so hidden assumptions.

For example:

If I assume I am a separate thing, a body/mind/person who came into this world (instead of from it), like a leaf which doesn’t realize it comes from the tree, operating on my own 20 horsepower, then guess what?

I become a caricature of myself, a presumptuous and vain overlay of arrogance onto innocence. Its a default position, barely alive.

Let me explain.

The very moment you identify exclusively with the content of your experience, your body/mind/self and all its perceptions and perspectives. that’s the very moment you abandon the Awareness which makes the whole experience possible in the first place.

Does the Screen of Awareness need the Image of the Body/mind/self/universe to Exist?

No.

Does the Body/mind/self/universe need the Screen of Awareness to exist?

Yes, the Image is made up entirely by the Screen, 100%.

The Image exists entirely by the ability of the Screen to pixelate, to refract its Clear Light into color, shape, space and time.

When we identify exclusively with the Image, we overlook the Screen and subject ourselves to the limitations of the Image.

This produces fear and suffering, competition, strategies and techniques designed to ensure our survival, an impossibility.

But, when we face Reality and the Primacy of Awareness as our True Identity, it doesn’t matter if Images appear or not. The Screen Exists independently of the Image.

Imposing our temporary, impermanent, mortal identities upon the Eternal Presence of Life is understandable, yes, but it is still a monumental error.

Unless the Image understands itself to be one with the Screen, exquisitely intimate and not separate from it, then a terrible fear and a desperate angst in inevitable.

The character on the stage is made entirely of the actor and his costume. He does not lament when the play is over, nor does the actor who goes home after the show.

Were the character to create an identity for himself, independent of the actor, he would suffer.

He has no identity apart from the actor. The actor and the audience make an agreement to tell a story, to enact roles and to forget that the character is an agreed upon fiction.

Unless the character is seen as an enjoyable and highly entertaining fiction, there will be suffering.

The suffering is a signal to Understand, like pain is a signal to take your hand out of the fire.

The refusal to face the Obvious, the insistence of a prosaic and provincial belief over the truth of our actual experience as Consciousness first/Image second is what creates egoity.

It’s a kind of sin, a crime against ourselves.

I call this spiritual pedophilia, a molestation of the Sacred by the Profane.

This is a very difficult admission to make, but I admit it.

Please see my essay Confessions of an Egoholic for more detail.

Susan Boskey

May 2023

https://pixabay.com/illustrations/women-sad-desperate-sea-ocean-6949086/  Ralf Seeman

As a species we are going through a lot. All I have to do is hear about yet another public explosion of violent rage to further confirm my suspicion of just how crazy things have become. Horrific physical crimes are visited upon unsuspecting people while the emotional abuse of deceit, denial and domination is so common that it has practically become the norm.

One of my personal top priorities is to increase skill in navigating, and hopefully positively impacting difficult situations as they arise. For me life is all about relationship: relationship with myself, others, Earth, animals and plants. As the dark side of things seems to keep escalating, I am tasked with looking inward to assess my own part in the problem.

Though many point to the mounting dark side ‘out there’, I have come to realize fewer will point the finger back to themselves to own their part. As a seemingly self-contradictory factoid, I believe that all human beings have blind spots that manifest uniquely as shortcomings while, at the same time, each human being is also blessed with at least one amazing natural gift. We have both.

The Problem with Identity

Today’s politics of identity add to the craziness. Who am I is the gender question of the day. For many, “Wokism” and its list of pronouns has elevated emotional and physical violence as judgments fly in every direction. As a result awareness of one’s blind spots and shortcomings are more taboo than ever.

In any culture I believe that children generally become conditioned to behave according to the beliefs (spoken and unspoken) assumed by their family. Whenever a perceived threat to one’s self-image is sensed the ego can puff up, defend itself and lie if necessary. At all cost we must hide, bury and/or deny our shortcomings because shortcomings=bad/wrong – right? No blame. I include myself.

The problem of blind spots showing up as shortcomings is not that they exist but rather the denial of them. I see how denial plays out as dark dramas from the accusative personal argument to world wars. The question becomes: how does someone make a dent in such a ginormous collective blind spot that now has the power to bite us in the collective butt?

I believe that when a multiplier of deceit, denial and domination runs rampant and is accepted cultural M.O. (Modus Operandi), it is because as a species we continue to fail to make truth more important than a shiny public image of ourselves, a commercial venture or of our country. Why do so many just go along with this approach to life?

If world peace were to unfold as a collective reality, politics will not be the reason why. Politics is a human subset and not the other way around. Our inner-most understanding of who we are as human beings, our thoughts, behaviors, integrity or lack thereof, is what shapes politics. The darkness we see out there is the darkness I believe that remains unaddressed within. To uproot the proliferation of hate and violence begins within.

I would also argue that historical, religious and cultural expectations of human perfection cause unintended social consequences;  it is difficult for people to be honest with themselves and others if they feel ashamed. Is the propensity to hide  certain parts of ourselves natural or learned? At any rate I think that such behavior is costly to society.

The Lie of Perfection Exposed

I don’t know about you, but I’ve yet to cross paths with a perfect human being. I would say we are perfectly imperfect. So where do we go from here? For myself I acknowledge: 1) how cultural conditioning can work against the vitality and success of a human being, and 2) how important it is to recognize the conditioning, accept it and find new, healthier ways of being.

Commercial interests gladly capitalize on the perfection ideology. My theory is that the innate need of survival in society directs people to buy-into whatever they believe might provide it for them. Has perfection in physical form become a blind obsession?

 Repurposed People

Repurposed people are those who recognize their truest identity as being of a spiritual nature. They are present inwardly, remembering who they are, while navigating life’s challenging circumstances in new and healthier ways. Repurposed people share the same purpose: to be and stay connected with their higher power and to be a quiet actor sharing unconditional love. They do what they can to be of service whenever they can, in big and small ways and according to their culture. Repurposed people seek to make a positive impact in the lives of others.

The task for restoring sanity to nature and humanity as I see it is to commit to being “in the world but not of it”. In other words it is to practice the Golden Rule, which is known throughout cultures in most every language. Millions of repurposed people already exist given the various ways to tap into the eternally loving frequency of God. For them the precepts of the spiritual realm have become energetically accessible as ‘downloadable’, understandable and integratable in daily life.

Recovery from Adversity

A strategy to recover from adversity (which includes trauma) is called adaptive resilience. It can also help to develop skills of emotional intelligence, something I believe to be very important nowadays. For my entire life I have sought answers to the question of how can we humans just get along, only to discover it must begin within me.

Recovery from adversity invites the use of strategies and tools to facilitate access to one’s inner reality. Inner work is a kind of practice to refresh our outlook on life and increase interpersonal skill. My own focus on emotional intelligence has helped me become more aware of when I act contrary to my true feeling or thought in any given moment – my own insincerity – if you will. I ask myself why do I do that?

I suggest that emotional intelligence, a valuable human asset, can also serve as a portal to spiritual reconnection, and that which follows it: new awareness, more wellbeing. less self-doubt and self- judgment. As I become aware of the truth of what I am thinking or feeling, I also drop into acceptance. Acceptance helps me to not beat myself up over what I had not wanted to know about myself. Letting go of what no longer serves me happens in its own time.

Letting go expands the receptivity of my body and mind to receive the energetic input of my higher power. Since nature abhors a vacuum, unconditional love fills newly released inner dysfunctions. What I’m describing is difficult to put into words because it is experiential.

It is my contention that virtually anyone can recover from adversity (if they really want to) by seeking their higher power. The opening that happens by our own effort of inner awareness and acceptance allows genuine letting go. The higher Self gradually and naturally replaces  inner confusion and darkness with the light of love that has always been there as our birthright.

Below is my idea of a roadmap and never-ending cycle that only gets better if applied.

Breaking Through 

Awareness

The secret is that awareness is not woo-woo. Awareness is the private inner telling of the truth to myself at any-given moment. The truth of what I am thinking and/or feeling in my body and heart is my natural integrity. Feelings and thoughts move through me; I am not stuck with that which I’d rather not know about myself. With awareness what is to happen next naturally unravels by grace.

Observation

With each passing day I can more easily witness how I think, feel and behave in the world.

Courage

The courage to see my own layers of deceit, denial and domination expand in proportion to the love I feel in my body.

Acceptance

Acceptance grows along with my awareness of any given new truth I realize within myself, especially of an uncomfortable truth. I own it and don’t judge or condemn myself.

Letting Go

Letting go is the natural response to my willingness to accept a part of myself I previously hid from awareness.

Gratitude

The more I am willing to see the layers of my dark side, the more they peel off and the more love I feel in my body. Fear falls away and I am sincerely grateful.

Transmission

When I am present knowing  that who I am is connected directly to a divine power, thoughts and emotions lose control over me. My ability to respond to myself and others with empathy increases. One-by-one a more beautiful world I know in my heart, comes into existence.

Just about anyone can make the choice to unearth and recognize the unencumbered human of unconditional love within. The dark side of the world transforms and dissolves in proportion to the number of people who consciously choose to fill their body and mind with the light and love of God/Source Energy. The peeling away of layers of hidden-from-ourselves-darkness is a process capable of catalyzing the return to a life of grace personally and collectively.

I renew my dedication to being the best version of myself possible because pure love is meant to be shared. People want to be seen and heard. Finally, it occurs to me to ask, what is our individual responsibility for knowing and spreading love and goodwill?

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Susan has chosen a path less traveled. Her curiosity about life, and health in particular, fueled her determination to learn everything she could about natural health for body, mind and soul. She intervenes in the noise of modern life to offer freedom from stress, anxiety, depression and chronic pain to a welcomed, felt-sense of wellbeing. Her online course, the CannaWisdom Process~wellbeing in a troubled world, provides step-by-step, careful self-care instructions for the medicinal use of cannabis. A healthy, new perspective on life without the use of pharmaceuticals is possible. Visit lifestylewellnessrx.com

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The famous “rescuing hug”

I was recently reminded of the incredible story of the “rescuing hug” photo (above). To sum up the basics:

Kyrie and Brielle Jackson were born on October 17, 1995 — 12 weeks ahead of their due date. Kyrie weighed only 2 pounds, 3 ounces. Brielle was even smaller and far more frail.

As per hospital policy, they were placed in separate incubators to reduce the risk of infection. Kyrie slowly began to thrive but Brielle did not. She experienced heart and breathing problems and was put in critical condition on November 12 — seemingly near death.

Nurse Gayle Kasparian decided to try something unheard of at the time. She got the parents’ permission to place the twins in the same bed. Here’s what happened next:

No sooner had the nurse closed the incubator door, than the fragile Brielle snuggled up to Kyrie and began to calm down. Within minutes, her blood-oxygen readings improved. Kyrie wrapped her left arm around her smaller sister. Brielle’s heart rate stabilized and her temperature rose to normal.

Long story short: The blessed power of human touch and connection prevailed. The twins survived and are living full healthy lives.

We all need and crave reconnection — now more than ever.

Whenever you’re touched by someone you trust, this welcome physical contact activates pressure receptors below the skin — thus setting off an incredible, healing process. Your Pacinian corpuscles send a message to your vagus nerve which, in turn, slows down your nervous system by:

• Lowering your blood pressure and heart rate 
• Decreasing the level of stress hormones like cortisol

The more you hug, the more hands you hold, the more snuggles you enjoy, the less of a threat cortisol plays in your body. Under normal circumstances, cortisol serves as your body’s alarm — ever ready to launch you into fight-or-flight mode when real or perceived danger is present. 

Thanks to this stress hormone, you will temporarily experience a burst of energy, enhanced memory, increased immunity, and a higher pain threshold. All this is obviously a good thing… except in instances of chronic stress.

Chronic stress = chronic cortisol. The negative outcomes of this equation include dangerously impaired cognitive performance and troubling physical symptoms like:

• Decreased muscle tissue and bone density
• Higher blood pressure
• Suppressed thyroid function
• Compromised immune functions
• Blood sugar imbalances
• Increased abdominal fat which may lead to heart attacks, strokes, and more

Trusted human touch counters all of the above while simultaneously increasing the presence of what has been labeled the “cuddle hormone”: a neuropeptide called oxytocin. It promotes powerful feelings of bonding. From this foundation grows trust, compassion, positive thinking, and an optimistic outlook.

Good news: Self-touch may activate some of the same soothing processes as being touched by others. Plus, if you’re fortunate to share your home with an animal companion, there are many benefits to be gained from cuddling with a dog or cat (for everyone involved).

Beyond self-touch and pets, you can try replicating the positive effects of physical touch by focusing on your other senses, e.g.

• The Value of Keepsakes: Any item that evokes the presence of a loved one should be touched and/or placed in your daily line of sight.
• Memory Visualization: If you’re without any keepsakes on hand, you may choose to rely on visualization. Get in touch with a positive memory with a loved one, meditate upon it, and bring all your senses to a state of awareness and gratitude. 
• Sensory Self-Care: Examples include taking long baths or showers, starting a stretching regimen, self-massage, and wearing comfortable clothing. Also, make it a daily practice to actively discover and appreciate the sights, sounds, and smells within your immediate surroundings. 
• Weighted Blanket: I can personally vouch for the calming effect of using my 15-pound blanket. The added pressure has been found to activate serotonin and reduce cortisol. On a more abstract but delightful level, it sorta feels like you’re getting a gentle hug all night long.

People all around you need real or virtual versions of a rescuing hug right now. Who will you rescue today?

Trade with those who love you.

Post by guest author Susan Boskey

lifestylewellnessrx.com

April 2023

vision

Even the most wounded human beings recognize their innate value; they tune in to the universal capacity to connect with something larger than personality. As real as one’s lower self is (the personality/ego-mind), so also is one’s higher Self (God/source), available to the extent one surrenders the personal will of the personality/ego-mind. (Hereafter just the ego-mind.) When the God Self becomes a collective experience safety, opportunity and prosperity prevail.

purpose

1. To illuminate the man-made inevitability of trauma, death and destruction given the elevation of the default human operating system of ego-mind,
2. to discern what is the higher Self and reunite with it, and
3. to offer an empowered path to the ego-mind that naturally invites one’s higher Self into active, expanded engagement.

 premise: identity from the inside-out

During a timeframe in the world of being able to assume any number of possible identities, all external identities ultimately fail to satisfy living in harmony with others and with Earth.

Everything is energy both visible and invisible and corresponds with a spectrum of frequencies from the most visible, dense desk to the invisible ethereal vibration. We are body, mind and soul. The identification as the body and mind, alone, has become most common. As such, the exclusion of the soul level of identify limits the range of how we consider ourselves and behave (treat each other) socially when left to only the ego-mind.

One’s personal consciousness exists as an invisible lens through which we see and respond. The default program of the ego-mind has collectively plunged to new self-defeating lows of greed, addiction, control, arrogance, deception and violent rage. In turn, the world as jungle is an accurate depiction.

That being said a return to affirming life is possible personally and collectively. However, to be able to achieve more than an appearance of success in this regard, the essential starting point is going ‘internal’. Self-observation and inquiry is an inside job; a safe way to see and shed the domination of a culturally conditioned eg0-mind of accumulated toxic beliefs and behaviors.

Anyone who chooses to be the best version of themselves can refresh even their darkest perceptions by being fully honest (at least) with themselves. There need not be shame or guilt for the dark side of the human condition. Conditioned ego-mind loses its power as the only reality with the honest recognitions of one’s thought process. These recognitions then become openings for our individual higher Self to renew us going forward.

The all-important foundation and starting point for the creation of a more beautiful world is to determine to make a personal fresh start. Facing traumas and toxic thoughts allows cellular openings of light/God to stream in. To regain the quality we want in the world collective we need first to become committed vessels of that quality within. Such quality is available to virtually all, and yet only happens deliberately: when someone consciously acknowledges the existence of an higher power beyond their own controlling ego-mind.

The choice then becomes to dedicate the ego-mind in service to expanding a universal source energy of love/God within. When we allow and practice receiving the frequency of universal love, it naturally grows inside and spreads outwardly. Inspired individuals and groups tip the scales towards what R. Buckminster Fuller called “a world that works for everyone.”

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The Upgrading Human is a natural, cyclical phenomena of spontaneous steps towards the personal remembrance of our true identity and the commitment to shine for the sake of others.

Upgrade 1.

The first step is becoming aware that I have the power to step outside of whatever insanity is in my life at the moment and instead live in a state of grace. It is not about changing anything externally: gender, looks, a relationship, a job, a living situation or the food I eat, etc. It is about committing to become my best version.

I question and see how my primary family ties and culture have shaped the way I think and behave. I learned how some emotions were acceptable in family and society, and how some were not. I did my best to suppress those that were not. But now I see through these agreement I blindly accepted. Sometimes it can be scary to be on the outside looking in, questioning that which once I believed and lived by.

Upgrade 2.

Fear, perhaps even more than anger, has been a driving force when I review how I have made important decisions. Fear of the future has plagued me.

Upgrade 3.  

I have made many mistakes, hurt people and been hurt. I have suffered but am not alone. Most everyone is going through something, somewhere in the world. Suppression, negative emotions and violence are everywhere as the dark side of the human condition.

Upgrade 4.

The unconscious nature of the human condition does not have to stay that way. It is possible to see it for what it is. Additionally, I need to recognize my own personal contribution to the darkness of that condition; it’s a choice. No one said it was going to be easy.

Upgrade 5.

I realize that human beings were designed to experience the universal quality of love. This helps me to acknowledge dark thoughts and mean spirits within and changes everything. I am safe to see and feel what has been going on inside me as I lift the suppression button. No blame. Darkness, once admitted, is pierced by light, losing power until it totally dissolves.

Upgrade 6.

It occurs to me that I am is not the darkest parts of myself, nor am I my best parts: I am none of my thoughts or my feelings. Who I am is an eternal being connected with the eternal source of life. I was not born and I cannot die. I choose surrender of my ego-mind.

Upgrade 7.

I am open to and receive resonant frequencies of love from my higher Self during moments of inspired presence. I am humbled by new light being born within.

Upgrade 8.

I admit how I get triggered out of presence and into old behaviors. As the observer I notice that I am not able to stop myself sometimes from doing so. Yet because I am willing to see my own behaviors, honestly, I can also decide to do it differently next time. No blame.

Upgrade 9.

The more I lift the suppression button to know and feel what’s actually true for me, I gain courage to deconstruct the lies and fantasies that have crippled me. I feel compassion for myself and others. The more I drink-in the blessings of a state of grace, the more I accept my human condition. The more I accept my human condition, the easier it is to make corrections towards the best version of an ego-mind, one guided by my higher Self. I dedicate my life to being a transmitter of the deepest quality of universal love.

Susan has chosen a path less traveled. Her curiosity about life, and health in particular, fueled her determination to learn everything she could about natural health for body, mind and soul. She intervenes in the noise of modern life to offer freedom from stress, anxiety, depression and chronic pain to a welcomed, felt-sense of wellbeing. Her online course, the CannaWisdom Process~wellbeing in a troubled world, provides step-by-step, careful self-care instructions for the medicinal use of cannabis. A healthy, new perspective on life without the use of pharmaceuticals is possible. Visit lifestylewellnessrx.com

by Susan Boskey

LifestyleWellnessRX.com

March 2023

I state the obvious when I say that we live in a materialistic world. It is not just greed and the insatiable thirst for more, but also how the predominance of a scientific ideological paradigm influences and limits reality to the five senses. Does that mean that if something cannot be seen, heard, touched, measured, smelled or tasted, then it’s not real?

The invisible world of Spirit defies measurement so does that mean it is in-credible?

To my primitive understanding, quantum physics, as related to consciousness, offers an entirely different view from conventional science: Absolutely everything is energy vibrating at different rates of speed while emanating from one same and single source. Energy is in constant motion, and so is also always changing, meaning that only change is permanent.

There is a price to pay by limiting oneself to the physical dimension. Qualities freely available, such as unconditional love, wellbeing and creativity are meant to be at the core of our daily existence. Yet exclusive focus on materialism has had the effect of pushing these freebies to the fringe;  the proposition that such God-given qualities can be gained via people, places and things turns out to be a counterfeit.

We are born captive to a materialistic world within which our parents, family and community were already a part. We learn, mostly in an unspoken matter, about the expectations of those in our environment. I call this an agreement field, if you will, passed down to us like the air we breathe. For myself, by the time I was 20 years old I was no longer comfortable in the world I was born into. However, neither did I have a clue as to what that meant or how to proceed beyond rebelling against what I could no longer agree to nor accept.

Agreement Fields and Their Fluidity

I would argue that once someone sees through to the fluidity of familial and cultural agreement fields they then stand at a Y in the road. The choice becomes clear: to either go forward accepting one’s original family/social frame of reference with all its beliefs, benefits, problems and solutions, or dare to risk it all by adventuring outside one’s known reality for truth and love.

Neither the choice of staying with or leaving one’s original agreement field is right or wrong. They both remain in the physical world but have their own unique set of plusses and minuses. Since I chose to risk it all and go my own way, I learned by trial and error what it meant to be on my own while living with a sense of being deeply misunderstood. I eventually did my best to sort things out and find ways to reestablish family connections. Naturally I wasn’t always successful, and took it upon myself to learn the ways I was part of the problem.

As YouTuber Lorie Ladd says, and I also believe: each of us is designed to live in the body from our highest version. And, to me, that highest version is being in alignment with my Higher Power. But until I saw the system of beliefs I was born into, and bought into, the idea of having a choice made no sense at all.

At one time or another in our lives many of us have been willing to abide by the (often hard to recognize) expectations of another or a system, for the purpose of being loved and accepted. Given that I view the human ego as the unconscious, default operating system, I would also say that its default behaviors and actions are generally assumed as normal. As such, expectations of how we (could) treat ourselves and each other never seem to get out of the basement.

To become my best version I answered the call to have God at my core. As a result and over time, my personal agreement field/lens on life keeps shifting from my little “I-me-mine” to  being absorbed into the larger, who I really am. This shift has required a clear and independent intent on my part since I have found little encouragement from society to seek it.

Humility is Key

As far as I can tell, who we each are is the essence of infinite love pulsating within the invisible, energetic space inhabited by the body; a gift that must be directly discovered by the inhabiting human. No other human has the power to give it. Oddly it seems that sometimes a crazy breakdown or a broken heart can effortlessly release one’s soul to the wonderful, and sometimes overwhelming, inner experience of unconditional, infinite love.

Humility, however realized, can open awareness to a new state of being due to something larger acting on our behalf as deep personal peace. I am safe in God’s love for me and it’s not a fantasy. I let go and trust. When I am stuck in a certain dark cobwebs of my own psyche, and then do see it, letting go happens simply as I am honest with myself.

Light streams in to fill my once, now revealed, unconscious piece of darkness. The more I recognize and own my limiting beliefs the more my Higher Power infuses my state of being. I renew my  identity with the eternal universe and the love that moves the sun and the stars.

World Peace?

It occurs to me that each and every human can choose to become the vessel of, and vehicle for, loving kindness. Infinite love is the contagion. Unlike other contagions this is the one everyone  wants, and that spreads exponentially like wildfire. Nonetheless, similar to how being caught in materialism comes at a price of spiritual connection, infinite love comes at a price of no longer running from the mind’s darkest recesses.

I have had people tell me that this – one love-filled human at a time – approach to world peace is too slow. Don’t believe it. War and winning wars has never been the solution for enduring peace and freedom. Governments have become dependent on war as their economic engine.

I am secure in knowing that the ever-evolving personal state of being is that which ultimately creates unwavering personal and world peace. Considering concentric circles, we can choose to go from the outer ring (suffering and loss) to the innermost one of receiving our true nature ( love and kindness). This precious choice is free and available to all.

Radical self-responsibility is born of realizing the transformative power in NOT resisting what is. When we stop running from the human condition of suffering, we can decipher the content of our limiting beliefs. One love-filled human at a time not only eventually reverses the darkness within to new states of being but also opens new possibilities that affect our friends, family, the collective and the planet. Love is the contagion we’ve all been waiting for.

The Body is the Garden of Eden

The Kingdom of Heaven is located in the Heart

The Heart is the Throne of the Mother.

Her King is the Mind, the Father, Her Husband, Servant and Protector. He builds Structures to Hold Her Watery Passions and Inseminates and Impregnates Her with His Love and Light.

He is Red. She is Blue.

He is Fight or Flight. She is Rest and Digest.

Electric. Magnetic.

These are the Infinitely Spectacular Polar Opposites of the Divine Masculine and Feminine, the Cosmic and Atomic Circuit which Conducts the Breath of God.

God creates. God destroys.

Out of destruction comes new creation.

Here is my point: That Which is Eternal circulates between the cycles of creation and destruction. That Which is Eternal is the Screen on which the Drama of Birth and Death, are projected, Divine Images of the King and Queen of the Heart.

Father. Mother. Child.

That’s the Structure of Existence, the Theatre of the Heart.

Who are you or me to stand in judgement of that? What do you or I know about the Cosmic Intentions of the Living Presence of Light and Love?

Not much. Therefore, we should respect and be in awe of this Great Wonder and allow it to be What it Is, which is us and everything else.

We should Participate! Not hide! Leave God alone. Let God be what God is, which is you, your Actual Identity as an Image on the Screen.

The Heart is the Screen and the body/mind/universe is the Image.

When this Heartfelt and Passionate Paradigm replaces the primitive, fear-based, spiritually anemic, emotionally contracted, culturally constipated Materialistic Paradigm currently infecting the Human Race, everything will suddenly change for the better.

This is a true fact and can be proven simply by noticing how effective garbage paradigms really are. If Malignant Malware, which is exactly what our current Narrative truly is, can be so effective in bullying its way into our minds and hearts and identities, think of what authentic Realware could do!

Hack into your Heart which has been hijacked and imprisoned in a cesspool of lies. Break into the Prison of the Profane and rescue your Bleeding Heart. Restore it to the very Center of your life. Get over the programming you have been subjected to.  Rely on your invincible Intelligence to show the Way. Impale the Counterfeit Zombie masquerading as You on sharp Spears of Truth.

That’s our Choice. Either Stand Up, Grow Up and Show Up as your True Self, or accept your fate and destiny as a slave to ruthless, loveless masters.

There is no middle ground anymore, no room for equivocation.

We must Act. Now. Everyone, altogether, all at once, embracing the gargantuan Beauty and Radiance of the Conscious Living Light Alive as all things.

We are the 7 Billion. Let’s start acting like it.

No more collusion. No more abdication. No more capitulation. No more submission.

Only Awe, Gratitude, Celebration, Participation.

Only Love, Freedom and  Happiness.

From Mild to Wild

by robert cinque

When a seed germinates in water and soil, its future destiny as a tree gestates in the womb of Mother God.

When an ego germinates in light and love, its future destiny as the Word made flesh gestates in the Heart of Father God.

When a chrysalis germinates in a cocoon, its future destiny as a butterfly gestates in the Imaginal Luminescent Body of Radiant Love.

The Sacred Trinity of Father/Mother/Child is the Truth of Life.

Life is 100% Sexual.

Males and females of every species create new life with their love and passion for each other: Life’s Love and Passion for More and More of Itself.

God is Infinitely Wild.

Uncontainable Love and Passion, which overflows as the universe. The Universe is a  Tsunami in the Ocean of the Presence of Infinite Conscious Living Intelligence Alive as all of Us.

We go from Mild to Wild when our microscopically miniscule ideas about ourselves are incinerated in the Furnace of the Searing Presence of That Which is Alive as all things.

There are no actual things. What we call things are attributes of Consciousness. They appear as things and objects and others as a matter of Childlike Play.

That’s Right. Life is Play. Life is Happy Game.

But then, our lamebrain ideas about ourselves slurk and ooze into a Gang, a Mafia, the Kidnapper of our Innocence. We become  thugs and goons who mug little old ladies in the street. The common ego presumptions we smear all over ourselves and everyone else produce a catastrophic mess, a clusterfuck of suffering, self- pity and blame.

And, this suffering is a Furnace in which Gold is smelted. The heat burns away everything that is not Gold.

Here is my point: Fuck things up all you want, but you’re gonna pay. Why not pre-empt all that and show up as love and energy? Curiosity and enthusiasm about what’s Real?

That way you could conduct the infinite Power

“Enlightenment is Perfect Non-obstruction”

Adi Da

The Precious Beauty and Sacredness of Life

by robert cinque

We are the Presence of Infinite Consciousness, that which is called God.

Our ability to say “I am” proves it.

Just because we add our personal experiences and human perceptions to our Presence doesn’t mean that we are compromised or limited by them.  Presence is not limited by anything.

Every single person alive can say with absolute certainty “I am. I exist. I am here. Now.”

It’s when we say I am Tony or I am hungry or I am sick that things get complicated and we miss the value and precious, astronomical significance of our Presence. No Presence, no experience! Presence is first and our Presence is Real.

Only God can be Presence. Only Consciousness can be conscious. Only Infinity can be infinite. Human beings are not conscious. Human beings are modulations of Consciousness, instruments, holograms, fractals, fingers  and eyeballs of Consciousness.

Again: we don’t “have” consciousness. It’s not “inside” us. It IS us. We are made of It. The mind is the inside of the body and the body is the outside of the mind. The bodymind itself is an Image appearing to the Screen of Consciousness.

This means that everyone is made of Conscious Light. Therefore, everyone is enlightened. The reason this goes unnoticed is because we miss and overlook the significance of our Presence.

Infinite, universal, timeless consciousness is playing the role of a human being that I call “me”.

The Screen is so intimate with the Image appearing on it, it’s understandable that the Screen/God would think it is the Image/human.  

Man is God dreaming. God is Man awake.

Gary Z

The point of all this is to understand that our simple, direct experience of Being is enlightenment.

It is not exotic, is not achieved by meditation or spiritual practice, is not mystical, otherworldly or supernatural. It is not a thing, a goal or anything that can be achieved. It is What Exists.

It is not an object and therefore has no edge.

When humanity realizes the stunning, jaw dropping Significance and Magnificence of ordinary, day to day, ho-hum human awareness, our world will skyrocket out of the manufactured misery we endure in this world and into the Realization of the Precious Beauty and Sacredness of Life.

Valid and authentic spiritual practice does exist, but it is not about becoming what you already are. It’s about un-becoming what you are not.

“Do not look for love because it is not lost. Look instead for the ways in which you obstruct it”

Rumi

Do not look for love because it is not lost. Look instead for the ways in which you obstruct it.

Rumi

Realware is like a software program in a computer, only It’s not a program that you install. It is the Intelligence in which the programs appear.

We humans, for example, exist as the Awareness of our experience. No Awareness, no experience.

Our sense of a body-mind-self  appears to our Awareness. It is a palpable, tangible, exquisitely sensitive and intimate Love Affair between consciousness and matter. It’s misleading to say this, though, — because consciousness and matter are one Reality, not two.

Awareness modulates itself into ego whirlpools. It cannot help but do this just like a River cannot help but create whirlpools.

Awareness is Infinite Intelligence, Transgalactic Presence, Radiant Living Conscious Light. It has Infinite Power and Knowledge of Itself, with or without the Universe. All forms spontaneously appear as a consequence of Its Presence.

Only this Presence Exists.

All forms and bodies and minds and worlds appear to It, as intimate as an Image is with the Screen.

Biology is the result of this Infinite Imagination, the Current of Life that flows through literally everything. Every structure, every organism, every element appears as a specific wavelength in the River of God.

The Authentic Narrative is an honest and heartfelt response to the Presence of Life. It’s not a premise, a slogan, an assumption, a program, a belief, an opinion or an idea.

The Authentic Narrative is a passionate Embrace of the Living Light of Life and Love. It has nothing to do with vain and arrogant assumptions, like:

1 — “I am a separate being, and so are you!”;

2 — “Consciousness is restricted to the limits of my body and mind, and when I die, consciousness dies. The fear of not existing scares me shitless because I love Life and don’t want to be separate from it. My fear provokes strategies of ego survival and if I need to dominate others to survive, that’s tough shit for them!”…

The Authentic Narrative is  the Wind that fills the sails of our boat. It is the Life that Lives Itself in and as what we call “me” and “you.”

The failure to comprehend the Utter Magnificence of Life results in the  dreadful and demonic “Kill-ture” that we see sprawled out across the Earth.

Earth means Heart, same letters in both words.

The Slavemasters who run the world prison buried their hearts in the grave of their ego fear.

Their motto is:  “Survival is everything and I will eat you alive if I have to!”

They are making good on their promise. Humanity is definitely being eaten alive.

My proposal is that everyone, every atheist, every fundamentalist, every scientific materialist, every Christian, Jew, Muslim and Buddhist, every politician, every single person alive today find the courage to face the incredible state of your own personal life and re-evaluate it in the CONTEXT of Infinite Life.

Stop cooperating with the zombification rituals that our Prison Guards manufacture. End your tolerance of abuse, slavery and injustice. Stop being a moral coward and weakling. Stop being a traitor to Life.

Spend more time Naked in Bed with The Great Lover. Take off the clothes of a puny identity that obscures your inherent beauty and greatness. Shut the Fuck Up and Pay Attention to how great  Life is beyond your miniscule, laughably naive perspective.

Understand that you have been lied to, manipulated, dominated, persecuted, prosecuted, stapled, spindled and folded into a grotesque version of your actual Self.

Then, get really pissed off and decide that you’re not gonna take it anymore.

Either from them, or from yourself.

Life is a Kiss, We are the Lips

By Robert Cinque (with thanks to Rachel Smith for giving me this title)

My awareness of my awareness is certain. I have all the proof I need that I am conscious and alive. I see my mind and body, I feel the range of emotions, I experience a torrential flow of a Mighty River.

The incessant, unending changes flow through my awareness. I am a field of consciousness that observes, contains and permeates all my experience without itself being changed in any way. The only thing that doesn’t change is my awareness of the change.

I can’t find the edge or limit to my awareness. It even contains all galactic space and time, which are objects to it.

”The Earth is  Realm, not a planet. It is not an object, therefore, it has no edge”

Nikola Tesla

Consciousness is a Realm, a Situation, a Condition.

“Consciousness is the Condition of all conditions”

Adi Da

Therefore, only Consciousness exists. It is impossible for us to be anything but Consciousness. This means that matter is made from Consciousness. Matter is a state of Consciousness. Mind is a state of Consciousness.

The waking and sleeping cycle of our daily lives are states of consciousness. A pulse and a rest. A Heartbeat. A Day and a Night. A Crest and a Trough.

Our birth and death are eternal Consciousness circulating between the cycles of light and dark.

It is a Sine Wave. We are cosmic blips on an infinite oscilloscope.

The blip is a signature of energy radiating through a medium: water.

Every organism is a water container of light. The nucleus of the cell is positively charged, the membrane is negatively charged. This polarity is a gateway through which infinite Consciousness flows. All batteries, generators, power plants and cells are powered by this Light. The generator does not produce any power. It only separates the charge and opens a gateway for the Light to enter the circuit. This incredible discovery was made by James Clerk Maxwell, the father of Electrodynamics, in 1864.

He wrote 22 equations, only 2 of which are in use today. The other twenty were tossed out because nobody could believe them. As a result, modern electrical generators conduct only one ten trillionth of the energy flowing into their circuit.  Tesla must have known about the 20 lost equations because his work proved Maxwell was correct.

My point is that we are not meat machines that evolved over millions of years through random genetic mutations. We are intelligent biologic nuclear reactors which process Light. The mitochondria in the cell burns the hydrogen in glucose. Hydrogen is the first element of the Periodic Table of Elements, and from which all other elements are derived.  Hydrogen is the first step in the process whereby Light appears as Matter. Research has shown that it appears to have seven harmonics or octaves, which means it is Light and Music

Our bodies are nuclear reactors which process Light into hydrogen that burns in the cell and produces atomic nuclei for the construction of our tissues and organs. We are 99% water by molecular weight which means we are almost 66% hydrogen. The hydrogen and oxygen combine to form water which is a liquid crystal that carries the Light to the cells.

Scientific Materialism tells us that this is all random and by chance, has nothing to do with intelligence. Instead of being curious and scientifically honest, they perpetuate a fraud of their own making. Science is supposed to investigate and experiment and create testable theories, not slather the slop and glop of uninspected assumptions all over everything. Their first assumption is that Matter is primary and produces consciousness through evolutionary biology. How could a weightless, formless non-material consciousness come from dead, inert matter?

Scientifically materialistic neuroscientists don’t even inspect the nature of perception and awareness! They are so busy staring at the objects of perception, they miss the most important subject of all: the awareness OF the objects.

For example: When I see a beautiful sunset, neurons fire in my cerebral cortex. Did the neurons cause my awareness and experience of the sunset? Or, are they the effect? Does a wave produce the ocean? Does the dance produce the dancer?

Correlation is not causation. Insisting so is belief, not evidence. Much of what passes for science today is nothing more than assumption, wishful thinking, rumor, hearsay and the reversal of cause and effect.

It’s important to understand this, otherwise we will be subject to grossly insufficient models of ourselves and reality at large. Science is supposed to be an intelligent and sophisticated way of investigating phenomena, not a cultic belief system that uses circular reasoning to sustain itself. 

There are invisible fairies in my garden. The proof? I can’t see them!

The sun is a banana. The proof? Bananas are yellow, the sun is yellow. Case closed.

Viruses are the cause of disease. The proof? They are always present in the body of a sick person.

Firemen cause house fires. The proof? They are always there when a house is burning.

As absurd as these examples are, they are widespread logical errors that exist all throughout so-called science.

Assumptions both cripple the investigation and determine the answer.

After the Towers were destroyed, the 911 Commission was formed. Their one and only question was How did airplane impacts and office fires bring down the Towers? The question conceals a hidden assumption that the Towers were brought down by planes and fires.

An honest question would have been: How did the Towers come down?

“The effect of the planes hitting the Towers was the equivalent of sticking a pencil through a screen door”

Architect, World Trade Center

When we craft the right questions and investigate honestly without imposing uninspected assumptions, our scientific and spiritual understanding will finally get some traction and we can drive through the mudslide of modern cosmology.

Cosmology is the most important of scientific disciplines because all the other sciences flow from it.

Our basic assumptions about the universe are reflected in medicine, astronomy, physics, geology, biology, and neurology. If the basic assumptions are wrong, everything downstream will share in the error. The assumptions are blindfolds that allow only a fraction of the landscape to be seen.

The assumption, for example, that I am a local, space/time bound entity that exists independently and autonomously, crammed between the ordeals of birth and death, separate and distant from my originating source PREVENTS me from seeing the Real Deal.

If Life is a River and we are a Whirlpool, If Life is a Kiss and we are the Lips, then Life is Love and we don’t have to go looking for it. What happens is that we start looking FROM it, not FOR it.

That’s what I call a Real Cosmology.

Life is not random mutations and Consciousness does not come from neurons firing in the brain.

The Youniverse is what Consciousness looks like when viewed from the perspective of a human individual. The bodymindself is a state of infinite Consciousness, not a separate self, marooned on an island of flesh.

Simply be being open and sincere, willing to discard any model, belief and assumption that imposes on Reality instead of revealing It, we can discover what has always been true and is true now: Life is Love and we as individuals are made 100% from it.  

The hammer sees only the nail. Everything that is not a nail goes unnoticed.

The ego sees only what it desires. Everything that is not a desire goes unnoticed.

The hammer is designed to drive nails. The ego is designed to get what it wants.  There is nothing wrong with this.

Nails comes naturally to hammers and desires come naturally to egos.  Changing this is impossible.

My point is this: If I am only an ego with a hammer, then I can only nail my desires or desire my nails.  However, if I am the one who is aware of my ego and hammer, then my experience of life expands infinitely in all directions and I notice everything, not just nails and desires. 

Making this distinction is the beginning of authentic spiritual life. This is because spiritual life is about what is true, not just what is assumed to be true that then becomes a massive context to which everything is now subject.

The ego is an assumption of a separate self that is then overlaid onto life.  If I subject my awareness to this assumption, these ego colored glasses, then I will see only what the ego sees.

If I identify with my awareness, then I am open to whatever awareness is aware of, which is a helluva lot more than nails and desires. I’m still aware of them, but am not limited to just them.

Every religious tradition in the world, from Hinduism to the New Age,  is based on the assumption of a separate self. Therefore, it is an overlay projected onto life.  It’s not about Life, it’s about assumptions about life.  It’s the difference between food and pictures of food.  If you try to live on pictures of food, you will die.

The Current of Life, the Pulse, the Music, the Passion, the Intensity, the Searing Radiance of Existence is central to Life, not provincial superstitions like ego.  It’s understandable that we invent superstitions and project them onto life.  It’s understandable, yes, but that doesn’t make them true.

Every religious tradition assumes a separates self that is going from here to there, from earth to heaven, from birth to death.  While it is true that lifeforms are born and die, the underlying Reality in which these cycles are occurring is the Real Deal.  The fish in the ocean are born and die, but the Ocean remains. Therefore, the Ocean is the True Condition of the fish, not its’ ideas about itself.  The fish would say, “What Ocean?”

In the same way, the ego says, What God?  I exist, what I say and what I think and what I want are God. In this way, false gods are overlaid onto Real God, Life God, Reality God, Actual God.  Beliefs about God replace God.  Now, you’re lost. You’re lost and don’t know it.  You’ve got your nose so close to the map, you can’t see where you’re going.

The priests say, “You’re not doing it right.”  The doctors say, “Take this prescription and come back in 2 weeks”.  The therapist says, “Apply this formula so that you can heal and adapt to society”

Ho fucking hum.  Religious, medical, and therapeutic prescriptions for a false disease bore me. Not only that, they really piss me off because well meaning people believe this shit and are so buried, you can’t even see the bottom of the hole.

“If you repeat a lie enough, everyone will believe it”

“A lie doesn’t become truth because everyone believes it.  A truth doesn’t become a lie because no one sees it”

The individuated self appears spontaneously in Nature, just like stars, planets and galaxies.  These are objects OF consciousness.  We are aware OF them.  Therefore, consciousness is prior TO them. This means that Consciousness is the Principle of Existence, not objects, not thoughts, not ideas, not beliefs, not “your truth”, not mine, not your ego, not mine.

Now, you ask, What is Consciousness? Your awareness of Awareness enables you to ask this question. Consciousness becomes an object to itself.  This is called Manifest Existence, the Universe, the Word become Flesh, the Incarnation of the Divine, the Kingdom of Heaven, the Garden of Eden.  Where there is awareness of Awareness, the Nature of Reality shines brightly and illuminates the map to the point where you see that you have been eating the menu for the Meal.  It’s the difference between pictures of sex and sex itself.  Which do you prefer?

Spiritual life is about Truth, Absolute Truth, What has always been True, not absolute beliefs, dogmatic presumptions, or facsimiles of Truth.

No separate self ever realized the Truth. The Truth illuminates the separate self to the point where it is outshined and becomes transparent.  Spiritual luminaries like Jesus and Adi Da were not separate selves.  They were identified with the Divine Condition.  Jesus spoke like God speaks, that’s why he was crucified.  He wasn’t a megalomaniac, the separate self was not inflated to grandiose proportions, there was no separate self, only a clear passage for Truth to Radiate.

That’s why he wanted us to contemplate his State and put our attention on It, so that It would duplicate his realization in us.  It was never about cultic worship of him, it was about the destruction of the cultist and his or her false presumptions about separateness from Love (God), our Actual Condition. This is true repentance, the renouncement of the false self and its idols, so that Love Intimacy, Heart Communion with Life is possible.  Love Communion with Infinite Life is authentic spiritual practice.  It’s the difference between a Juicy Kiss and a boring book that you’ve read a thousand times and doesn’t even have any pictures.

Spiritual life is not boring, is not dry, is not effortful.  It takes no effort to be attracted to What is True, Beautiful, and Alive as all things.  It’s real time love communion, not brain/mind ideas plastered onto Life. Everyone possesses this ability.  It may be buried beneath the rubble, but it’s still there.  Dig it up.

From the shock of my birth and the fear of my death, I doubt and collapse from Love, my True Condition, and dramatize betrayal, abandonment, and worthlessness

I collapse from love and create suffering through self pity and blame

I blame others and transfer ownership of myself to them.

I create scapegoats and false gods in my rage.

I destroy Love and betray it and accuse others of betraying me

I create doubt and fear.  When I fear I want security.  When I want security, I empower false gods, tyrants, experts, strategies, and substances to save me.

I am a fundamentalist, a fascist, and a tyrant in an ego cult of one.

I enslave others in my hellish condition of dread

I abuse others with my self pity

I dramatize abandonment and rejection and self pity and fuel all my other lesser addictions with it.

I harm myself and others with my addiction to a false self, an idea, a victim/robot who imagines itself to be separate from Love

I am a cultic worshipper in my exclusive ego cult of one.

I imprison others by my withdrawal from Love

I condemn others to the dungeons of my lovelessness

I betray Life by my withdrawal from Love.

My collapse and withdrawal from Love is sickening and starves all my relations.

I use these conditions to justify my accusations of betrayal.

I use other’s failure to love me to justify my own failure.

I betray Love and blame others for it

I reject love, then dramatize betrayal.

I make others wrong

I impose my agenda

I am a recovering ego addict because I notice the obvious Beauty and Love at the Heart of Existence and the way in which I obstruct it.

I am not separate from Life and Love

I am free to be in alignment with Life and Love or not.

I am responsible for the consequences of my alignment or non alignment with Life and Love.

I use my non alignment with Life and Love as an excuse and reason for self pity

I am inherently, already unified with what is always already the Case: seamless unity between consciousness and matter, God and self, whole and part.

I am recovering from self pity and the willingness to tolerate lovelessness in myself

I am a whirlpool in a River of Light

I am a recovering ego addict.

I am responsible For and To Love.

I maintain Heartfelt Intimacy with the Truth of Love, the Core of Reality.

I do not withdraw from my Actual Condition as a Whirlpool in this River.

I trust the White-Hot Core of Existence.

I trust Life’s Brilliance.

I am thrilled by the Intensity and Freedom and Love of Life

Life flows from Love, the Condition of all things

I am Always Already one with Life

Life is Love, I am That

Life is Love

Love is Truth

Truth is God

God is Reality

Reality is Light

Light is Love

I Love Life

I am responsible for Love

I am responsible to Love

My revulsion at my failure to love is the beginning of awakening

My responsibility for Love is authentic spiritual practice.

I am responsible for my choice of contexts, concepts, and conclusions, including their effects, outcomes and consequences.

I am free to love and to be what I already am, or not

I am responsible for everything I think, say, and do and their effect, implication, and consequence are my responsibility

I am responsible for the suffering I create.

I am intrinsically intimate with all beings.

I am a recovering ego addict

by Robert Cinque

Did you think that Our Lord’s Work was to pay the penalty and assume the karma for your sins and mine?

If so, then you are gravely mistaken and have been co-opted by the very forces that killed him.

Jesus hated blood sacrifice and told the people that he had come to rebuild the Temple. Many people took this to mean that he would destroy Rome and rebuild the Temple in Jerusalem.

But, what he really meant was that he would rebuild the Temple of Mankind.

He said, My Kingdom is not of this world, which surely means that neither is the Temple.

This means that his Kingdom is greater than Empire and that his Temple is greater than bricks and mortar.

The Kingdom of Heaven is the Heart of Mankind and the Temple is the Body.

The Kingdom of Heaven is both transcendentally and immanently located in the heart of every individual.

The Temple is literally the Body of Mankind, appearing as every single individual, also known as the Garden of Eden, the Domain of Light and Love, Freedom, Happiness, and Well Being.

Jesus was  about Love.  Nothing  less.

Empire, bricks and mortar are about Empire, bricks and mortar. Nothing  more.

Therefore, we must establish the Kingdom of the Heart and rebuild the Temple, the Body of Love where it belongs:  in our lives.  In our world.

That is the work for us who dare to take up the mantle of the Living Christ.

The idea of vicarious atonement is total bullshit. I and only I am responsible for my actions and their consequences. No one can save me but myself. Scapegoats are the transference of ownership, otherwise known as blame. Jesus condemned this because it’s irresponsible and childish.

Scapegoats are created by the refusal to self- own, the failure to be responsible and accountable for oneself. Coddling and enabling our childish irresponsibility is a Globalist Wool pulled over our eyes to blind us from the searing Truth of the Utter Unity of All Being.

This was, and is, Jesus Christ’s  Original Gospel.

 Always Already Existing, Inherent, Utter Prior Unity with God and All Being, In Love. That’s why it’s called the Good News.

Jesus insisted that we realize the truth, not believe the lies his killers made up about him and how he’s gonna save our sorry ass from the consequences of our actions or the sin we supposedly inherited from Adam and Eve.

That’s right. Not only are we sinners and moral failures, we inherited a deadly disease called Original Sin.  We’re guilty for the sin of being born to parents who disobeyed God. They passed their disease and sin onto us, but wait, this just in, God decides to murder his Son so that you can be saved.  Wow, what a break. Gee, thanks.

Who is writing this script?

The ones who don’t want you to realize that only Light, Love, Truth and God exist.

The ones who invert the truth, turn it upside down and backwards.

As an example, read almost any headline from the CIA controlled media.

This is important to understand. The Narrative rules the world. The Narrative is You’re Fucked and We Have the Solution.

Shock. Rescue

The Rulers will kill anyone who shows how untrue this Narrative is.

Like Jesus, Lincoln, JFK, Martin, Bobby, John Jr., Lennon, Malcolm, Gandhi, Tesla, Julian and many, many others.

Their mandate has passed to us and

THAT’S THE MEANING OF THE SEASON:  PEACE ON EARTH, GOODWILL TO ALL, JOY TO THE WORLD THROUGH THE REALIZATION OF UTTER UNITY AND INTIMACY WITH ALL BEING.

The Gospel of Jesus Christ is not a theory or a belief, but a Discovery and Realization of the True Nature of Reality Itself.

Only this Realization of the Utter Truth of Life will suffice to save our world.

All at once, now, in everyone, everywhere, now and forever.

The Gospel of Love and Freedom can be expressed in 7 equivalent sentences:

Life is Love

Love is truth

Truth is God

God is Reality

Reality is Light

Light is Love

Love is Life

In this Season, and every day, Rejoice, Celebrate and Be Glad.

The Truth of Life and Love exists. It’s not an idea, not merely a belief. Gravity is not a belief either.

The Good News is more than sufficient to build a world of real Celebration and Happiness. It is the only real basis for a sane and healthy planetary society.

Everyone knows this. The problem is we believe the lies we inherited and the ones we tell ourselves.

The solution is to stop. There is no reason to believe lies or anything else when we have the truth.

This Truth is Obvious. It is not hidden. It is not esoteric, secret or controllable, neither by priest nor scientist.

The refusal to face the awesome truth about Life is what creates hell. Hell would not exist if it were not for the Lie we tell ourselves. That means our lies create Hell. People who say God created Hell because of our sins are incorrect. God would never do such a thing. Only we liars are capable of such a monstrosity.

Taking up the Mantle of the Living Christ means we have to stop believing lies.

In this Season, let us all be devoted to, and deadly serious about, what is True, what is Real.

In that way, the Holy Work of Jesus Christ can continue and awaken everyone to the Condition of all conditions:  Conscious Living Light Alive as All Things.

Our unity as individuals and nations does not have to be achieved. It has to be Realized as being already true.

Adi Da

Poisons

Self pity: the dramatization of abandonment and victimhood. The belief in powerlessness and that everything happens to me, not in me, with me and because of me. The collapse from love into prisons of mind which equate baseless assumptions with factual evidence. Self pity is a self fulfilling prophecy and guarantees unresolvable conflict

Complaint: legitimate dissatisfaction that never grew into positive action for healthy change. Complaint is the evidence of living in a default ego mode in which one feels both terrified and powerless.

Blame: the demon child of complaint. The irresponsible transfer of ownership from self to other. Blame is the last refuge of the coward who refuses to accept the consequences of his own choices and actions.

Contempt: Decayed, rotten anger and hatred that never saw the light of day. Dissatisfaction that never grew into healthy change. Contempt is the vicious scorn heaped upon those to whom we gave our power and who got the blame for it.

Condemnation: the false assumption of superiority. The belief that I’m Ok, you’re not Ok. Condemnation is the evidence that I allow others to control my life.

Criticalness: the willingness to focus only on the faults of others as a way of avoiding one’s own faults

Withdrawal: the refusal to love. The silent punishment meted out to those who disobey my decrees and assert their own freedom. Withdrawal is the final nail in the coffin, the brutal ending of what was once a thriving love affair.

Nutrients

Self Ownership: The willingness to be responsible for what I say and do. The refusal to avoid the consequences of my actions. The understanding that my state is up to me, not circumstances, conditions or other people.

Alignment: Coherence between personal and infinite life. The return to innocence and purity, not by disciplines but by Noticing what is always already true. Alignment is the result of understanding that infinite intelligence exists on all scales, that it is my actual nature, not my hypothecated one. It is my self already, now. It does not become enlightened; It already is light. Enlightenment is, therefore, our actual state now. It is not something that is added to us at the end of a journey; It is our condition, now. That means that we can’t become who we are precisely because we already are it. What happens is that we un-become who we are not. This reveals the always existing alignment that had become obstructed by false assumptions and mistaken perceptions.

Acknowledgement: The Act of affirming and embracing what Exists. Acknowledgement is the result of the courage it takes to face one’s own limited contexts and false assumptions. By Bravely Acknowledging the Truth of Life, all the false identities dissolve on their own and do not require effortful struggle.

Recognition: The mature fruit of Acknowledgement. The stabilized understanding that infinite intelligence is Alive and Well as all things.

Empathy: Love in the form of a willingness to stand in another’s shoes. Empathy is food for the soul of another

Empowerment: one of the immediate results of empathy. Empowerment is the energy that comes from digesting love.

Demand: the requirement that life places upon us to face the Mystery and Wonder and Ordeal of Existence. Demand is the practice of not flinching, not avoiding the blood, sweat and tears of human life.

Enjoyment: The radical disposition of freedom. Enjoyment is the direct result of what happens when Life’s Radiance is unobstructed by our false assumptions and ego identities. In this understanding, the universe can be seen as an expression of Life’s infinite freedom and enjoyment of it’s own Intense Dynamic,

When an individual is willing to be reduced to his or her essential nature and is open to the truth and Glorious Nature of Existence, then that one becomes a Beacon of Light in the world.

It is at this point that an actual relationship begins.

When we Climb the Mountain and Understand the Poisons and the Nutrients, the rest is all downhill.

Dear Friends

In every crisis there is an opportunity;  the bigger the crisis, he bigger the opportunity. The crisis I am referring to is not Covid 19. The crisis is the narrative about Covid 19. The reason the narrative is much more dangerous than the so-called virus is because claims are being made about the “virus” that are not true, yet they are widely believed.

The narrative claims that a microscopic virus infects healthy cells, hijacks their DNA and replicates itself to the point of cell death. The only solution is to vaccinate the individual and prevent the virus from spreading.

To the casual observer, this is plausible and reasonable. After all, the Germ Theory Has been around for 140 years and the entire medical/pharmaceutical industry is built on it. The idea that germs cause disease is the very foundation of health care and is deeply ingrained in the global mind set. In this newsletter, I am going to provide evidence that, not only is the Germ Theory 100% incorrect, it has never been proven, and can be easily exposed for the fraud that it is.

When a tree falls in the forest, fungi, bacteria and other microbes digest and dissolve it down to its atomic level. Then, those atoms are recycled and repurposed to create new soil for new life.

When tissues in your body die, fungi, bacteria and other microbes perform this exact same function and the atoms are used to create new tissues. It is an intense and complex process of destruction and re-building. The microbes are Demolition Crews, Garbagemen, Firemen and Engineers working together for the well being of the individual.

This Process in universal throughout all of Nature, the Great Recycler. There is every reason to have enormous confidence that she knows what she’s doing. It’s irresponsible and extremely dangerous to look at her processes and make false, unverifiable assumptions about them and then invent a planet-wide Congressional Pharmaceutical Disease Management System (falsely called health care). Yet, that’s exactly what John D Rockefeller did in the early 1900s.

He became the world’s first billionaire from the exploitation of oil and realized that the waste products from refining it could be turned into “medicines” to treat disease. In order for that to happen, he had to dig up the discredited Germ Theory invented by Pasteur and make it look respectable. He sent his minion Abraham Flexner around the country buying up colleges and universities as long as they studied germs and viruses and validated the need for antibiotics, vaccines and other poisons in treating disease. While antibiotics can sometimes be useful when the body is too overloaded with the process of digesting and rebuilding dead tissue, they should only be used in extreme emergencies. They kill ALL the microbes and provide a period of rest and recuperation so that the Process can begin again. When penicillin was developed, it seemed like a miracle had descended from heaven. It was credited with the ability to cure disease. The problem is that you can get too much of a good thing. Over use of antibiotics destroys the gut biome, the very heart of the immune system.  Antibiotics don’t cure disease, they only interrupt the process, the patient feels better and concludes that his doctor is a genius. However, suppression of symptoms is not a cure. Only Nature cures, no one else.

Antibiotics and vaccines also damage the mitochondria where the hydrogen in the food we eat is combusted for energy. Poorly functioning mitochondria, like woodstoves that are starved for air, produce creosote, lactic acid and plaque. Doctors who notice this gunk in the arteries conclude that it is the cause of heart disease when it is actually the effect. The cause of heart disease is poor combustion of hydrogen in the mitochondria.

All so-called diseases are caused by injury, poisoning and starvation and are ordeals of purification and renewal. The fact that microbes are present and you feel terrible does not mean that they are the reason you are sick. The body is designed to be extremely robust and resilient and anything less indicates obstructions and congestions in metabolic pathways.

The reason why the Germ Theory and the narrative about antibiotics and especially vaccines is so dangerous is because it removes responsibility for your health from you and places it the hands of the Beast.

The Beast

The Beast is a system of thoughts and beliefs that are presented as Reality. Its power comes from the billions of individuals who idolize it and align themselves with it. The Beast is a Narrative that infects the mind with false assumptions and beliefs, a mental machine that churns out billions of copies of itself.

The choice is clear. Do we acknowledge the meta-genius biology of Nature, or do we submit to the non-scientific, for-profit assumptions of Rockefeller and the hundreds of universities he spent hundreds of millions of dollars subverting? While the universities were scrambling to comply with the conditions Rockefeller laid out for their funding, the Naturopathic Doctors who studied Nature and her Cures were ridiculed and put out of business. It became a crime of “misinformation” to believe in anything but the Germ Theory. Sound familiar?

Covid 19 is the latest and greatest accomplishment of the Germ Theory. Its not pesticides, air pollution, junk food, glyphosate, 5G radiation, fluoride, antibiotics, vaccines, or damaged mitochondria that are the problem. No, it’s the “virus”.

The Opportunity

Prisons create the desire to escape, but only for those who understand that they are in prison. Everyone else is too busy painting blue skies on the ceilings of their cells to notice. For those who have stared into the core of the Beast and understood that it is a machine of control and subversion, then escape is the only option.

The Beast provides a prison and the opportunity to escape from it.

The problem is not that people are lazy and don’t mind their enslavement. The problem is that billions of people do not see the bars of their prison cell. But, when the suffering and misery become great enough, then he and she will come back to life and find a way to break out.

The Germ Theory and the Narrative around antibiotics and vaccines are 2 of the bars of the cell. There are many more, but I want to concentrate on these 2. They are instructive and useful because they are inventions, not discoveries. A discovery is real, embedded in Nature. The invention of a false construct about Nature, like the Germ Theory and poisons masquerading as medicines, are not real, just ideas, fabrications, manufactured stage props and bald faced lies intended to deceive and control entire populations.

Our Work is to stare into the Beast long enough until we understand that it is a prison/machine that we must escape from and then demolish. It’s a lot like David and Goliath. David was a shepherd, Goliath was a fierce Gladiator. Had David met Goliath on the battlefield with armor and spear, he would have been crushed by the Giant. David knew he had the advantage because he was quick and nimble and could dance circles around Goliath who wore 300 pounds of armor. David was skilled with his slingshot and used it to protect his flock from wolves. When the stone struck Goliath in the forehead, it had the impact equivalent of .45 handgun. It took one stone to bring Goliath to the ground. Then, David used the Giant’s own sword to cut off his head.

Our Goliath is the Germ Theory and its armor, the Pharmaceutical/Congressional Complex

Our stone is the truth of Nature.

With love

Robert

_________________________

(See also – my posts at:

Dear Friends

In every crisis there is an opportunity;  the bigger the crisis, he bigger the opportunity. The crisis I am referring to is not Covid 19. The crisis is the narrative about Covid 19. The reason the narrative is much more dangerous than the so-called virus is because claims are being made about the “virus” that are not true, yet they are widely believed.

The narrative claims that a microscopic virus infects healthy cells, hijacks their DNA and replicates itself to the point of cell death. The only solution is to vaccinate the individual and prevent the virus from spreading.

To the casual observer, this is plausible and reasonable. After all, the Germ Theory Has been around for 140 years and the entire medical/pharmaceutical industry is built on it. The idea that germs cause disease is the very foundation of health care and is deeply ingrained in the global mind set. In this newsletter, I am going to provide evidence that, not only is the Germ Theory 100% incorrect, it has never been proven, and can be easily exposed for the fraud that it is.

When a tree falls in the forest, fungi, bacteria and other microbes digest and dissolve it down to its atomic level. Then, those atoms are recycled and repurposed to create new soil for new life.

When tissues in your body die, fungi, bacteria and other microbes perform this exact same function and the atoms are used to create new tissues. It is an intense and complex process of destruction and re-building. The microbes are Demolition Crews, Garbagemen, Firemen and Engineers working together for the well being of the individual.

This Process in universal throughout all of Nature, the Great Recycler. There is every reason to have enormous confidence that she knows what she’s doing. It’s irresponsible and extremely dangerous to look at her processes and make false, unverifiable assumptions about them and then invent a planet-wide Congressional Pharmaceutical Disease Management System (falsely called health care). Yet, that’s exactly what John D Rockefeller did in the early 1900s.

He became the world’s first billionaire from the exploitation of oil and realized that the waste products from refining it could be turned into “medicines” to treat disease. In order for that to happen, he had to dig up the discredited Germ Theory invented by Pasteur and make it look respectable. He sent his minion Abraham Flexner around the country buying up colleges and universities as long as they studied germs and viruses and validated the need for antibiotics, vaccines and other poisons in treating disease. While antibiotics can sometimes be useful when the body is too overloaded with the process of digesting and rebuilding dead tissue, they should only be used in extreme emergencies. They kill ALL the microbes and provide a period of rest and recuperation so that the Process can begin again. When penicillin was developed, it seemed like a miracle had descended from heaven. It was credited with the ability to cure disease. The problem is that you can get too much of a good thing. Over use of antibiotics destroys the gut biome, the very heart of the immune system.  Antibiotics don’t cure disease, they only interrupt the process, the patient feels better and concludes that his doctor is a genius. However, suppression of symptoms is not a cure. Only Nature cures, no one else.

Antibiotics and vaccines also damage the mitochondria where the hydrogen in the food we eat is combusted for energy. Poorly functioning mitochondria, like woodstoves that are starved for air, produce creosote, lactic acid and plaque. Doctors who notice this gunk in the arteries conclude that it is the cause of heart disease when it is actually the effect. The cause of heart disease is poor combustion of hydrogen in the mitochondria.

All so-called diseases are caused by injury, poisoning and starvation and are ordeals of purification and renewal. The fact that microbes are present and you feel terrible does not mean that they are the reason you are sick. The body is designed to be extremely robust and resilient and anything less indicates obstructions and congestions in metabolic pathways.

The reason why the Germ Theory and the narrative about antibiotics and especially vaccines is so dangerous is because it removes responsibility for your health from you and places it the hands of the Beast.

The Beast

The Beast is a system of thoughts and beliefs that are presented as Reality. Its power comes from the billions of individuals who idolize it and align themselves with it. The Beast is a Narrative that infects the mind with false assumptions and beliefs, a mental machine that churns out billions of copies of itself.

The choice is clear. Do we acknowledge the meta-genius biology of Nature, or do we submit to the non-scientific, for-profit assumptions of Rockefeller and the hundreds of universities he spent hundreds of millions of dollars subverting? While the universities were scrambling to comply with the conditions Rockefeller laid out for their funding, the Naturopathic Doctors who studied Nature and her Cures were ridiculed and put out of business. It became a crime of “misinformation” to believe in anything but the Germ Theory. Sound familiar?

Covid 19 is the latest and greatest accomplishment of the Germ Theory. Its not pesticides, air pollution, junk food, glyphosate, 5G radiation, fluoride, antibiotics, vaccines, or damaged mitochondria that are the problem. No, it’s the “virus”.

The Opportunity

Prisons create the desire to escape, but only for those who understand that they are in prison. Everyone else is too busy painting blue skies on the ceilings of their cells to notice. For those who have stared into the core of the Beast and understood that it is a machine of control and subversion, then escape is the only option.

The Beast provides a prison and the opportunity to escape from it.

The problem is not that people are lazy and don’t mind their enslavement. The problem is that billions of people do not see the bars of their prison cell. But, when the suffering and misery become great enough, then he and she will come back to life and find a way to break out.

The Germ Theory and the Narrative around antibiotics and vaccines are 2 of the bars of the cell. There are many more, but I want to concentrate on these 2. They are instructive and useful because they are inventions, not discoveries. A discovery is real, embedded in Nature. The invention of a false construct about Nature, like the Germ Theory and poisons masquerading as medicines, are not real, just ideas, fabrications, manufactured stage props and bald faced lies intended to deceive and control entire populations.

Our Work is to stare into the Beast long enough until we understand that it is a prison/machine that we must escape from and then demolish. It’s a lot like David and Goliath. David was a shepherd, Goliath was a fierce Gladiator. Had David met Goliath on the battlefield with armor and spear, he would have been crushed by the Giant. David knew he had the advantage because he was quick and nimble and could dance circles around Goliath who wore 300 pounds of armor. David was skilled with his slingshot and used it to protect his flock from wolves. When the stone struck Goliath in the forehead, it had the impact equivalent of .45 handgun. It took one stone to bring Goliath to the ground. Then, David used the Giant’s own sword to cut off his head.

Our Goliath is the Germ Theory and its armor, the Pharmaceutical/Congressional Complex

Our stone is the truth of Nature.

With love

Robert

_________________________

(See also – my posts at:

When I say I, who or what is speaking? The only possible answer is infinite consciousness, that which is aware and alive in and as all things. The reason this is the only possible answer is because awareness is what makes experience possible in the first place, and the experience of I is primary and central to all other experiences.

My first experience is I.

I am. I exist. I am aware.

My second experience is I am aware of a body and mind in a world.

Since awareness is primary and central to all experience, I am awareness first and am not limited to the bodies and thoughts and objects that I am aware of any more than the sky is limited by what floats through it.

The incredible thing is that in order for I to appear, infinite consciousness has to forget itself and go to sleep so that it can dream me. I am a character, an eyeball, a perspective, a dream character in God’s mind.

This is why the Hindus talk about Maya, or deception and the Buddhists talk about emptiness.

The universe is what God looks like when viewed through a space/time perspective.

Its not identical to God any more than a brain scan while you’re eating chocolate is identical to the taste of chocolate. The point is that parts of the brain light up when you eat chocolate but it doesn’t tell you anything about the experience of tasting chocolate.

All we have and know is experience, awareness of I and what I am aware of.

All experience is built out of awareness, which expresses itself as I.

The dog knows her name and knows when you are speaking to her. The spider spins her web to catch food for her babies. Infinite consciousness forgets itself and surrenders itself to all beings without restraint.

The awareness in the spider and dog and you and me is identical.

The differences between species is like the difference between sunglasses, microscopes, and kaleidoscopes. All perspectives create their own unique refraction of the Infinite Light of Consciousness.

The reason this is important is because the Infinite Ocean of Living Light is eternal. The bodies and minds and universes appearing within it are finite and are created and destroyed in an endless process of transformation.

That’s what Infinite Radiant Awareness likes to do.

God goes to the Movies. In fact, God is the Movie.

As God’s dream character, the Game is to play the part well. Study your lines. Practice your acting skills with a coach. Take your part seriously. The audience can smell a bad actor and ruin a good story. The best actors are the ones who don’t look like they’re acting. They convince us that what we are seeing is real.

For years I have had a dream in which it’s opening night at the Metropolitan Theatre in New York and I am the Lead Actor in the Play. I am surrounded by actors in costumes. There are thousands of people in attendance and I am about to walk out onto the stage. I haven’t studied my lines, I have no idea what I am supposed to do or how I am going to fake this performance in public. The curtain is pulled back and then, thank God, I wake up.

Another dream I had repeatedly decades ago was my tongue was like a roll of toilet paper and I was furiously pulling it out of my mouth until it laid on the floor in a pile.

These 2 dreams are related and are relevant to the claims I am making in this essay.

The second dream is about other people’s words in my mouth.

The first dream is about a complete failure on my part to understand who I am and who my character is, and the difference between them.

I couldn’t remember my lines because I didn’t know who I was or who my character was. Other people’s words occupying my mind and tongue didn’t help either.

Now, through a brutal process of destruction and creation, I have stabilized and understood my true nature to be absolutely infinitely free and spectacularly beautiful and happy.

All of us share in this Nature.

Reality is so shockingly magnificent and so wickedly beautiful, a single glance into its core is more than enough to shatter your fear, arrogance, and vanity forever.

The point of this essay is to honor and respect what we usually take for granted, our ordinary human life, our mundane day to day routine.

When you think about what had to happen in order for you to be bored on a lazy day, things don’t look so mundane anymore.

The centrality of Awareness is the best kept secret in the world, hiding in plain sight. We think God and Infinite Consciousness is at a great distance from ourselves. But that’s not true and that’s not why we miss it.

We miss it because it is at a great closeness to ourselves, so close we don’t notice.

The point of authentic spiritual practice and study is to Notice.

That’s because when all the minor conditions have been incinerated, only the major Condition remains.

The minor conditions are the objects of perception, thoughts and ideas about body, mind and self. The major Condition, the Condition of all conditions, is That Which is Aware of all conditions, perceptions and objects.

To the Condition, conditions appear and disappear, but it is not changed, like a mirror that is not changed by what it reflects, or a screen that is not affected by the images appearing on it.

The shift from identifying with an image to identifying with the screen is bloody, chaotic, confusing and destructive of all false narratives. It is hot and painful and the dungeons full of rotting monsters and demons fling their gates wide open. I found myself feeding the hungry demons and finding places for the monsters to sleep. Some of them became my friends and allies after I pulled their broken teeth and stitched up the gashes in their flesh. Others moved on to other lands and I hear they tell tall tales of some dude who actually loved them and cared about them, which no one could believe.

My point is this: painful, ugly truth is much better than beautiful lies.

You have been lied to and worse, much worse, you believed them. You didn’t know any better. If your mother gives you a glass of milk, you drink it without question because it comes from a trusted source. The problem for us humans is that we trust sources that don’t deserve it.

For example, how do you know that you were born into Original Sin? Because the Bible says so and you trust the Bible.

How do you know that viruses cause disease? Because you trust the scientists and doctors who say so.

But, do you know for sure? Is there a test that we can do to determine if indeed we were born in Sin? Is there a test to prove that the presence of a microbe in the body of a sick person caused the disease? Does correlation prove causation? No. Nor does assumption equal proof. 

The way to live an authentic life that is free from the swarms of bats that constantly fly into your heart and soul is to become the Sky, to see that you have always been the Sky, you just thought you were a bat.

The water in a pitcher thinks its a pitcher. The water in a bucket thinks its a bucket. No, it’s still water, no matter what the shape.

Water can be liquid, solid or gaseous but it’s always H2O. 

You can be Tom, Nancy or Fido the fucking dog, but it’s always Awareness.

Awareness is infinite, without dimension, not located in space or time.

You are that. The proof is that Awareness is always your first experience and that only it can enable perception. No awareness, no perception. No perception, no experience. No experience, no Now.

Awareness and Now are identical. The proof is that wherever you go its always Here and no matter what time it is, it’s always Now.

You can’t get away from yourself. You’re always Here and Now.

This means that you are bigger than and prior to all phenomena, states, conditions and perceptions, all ideas, images, beliefs, and thoughts.

You can’t achieve this, you are this. The religions want you to seek this because they know you will never find it. You can’t find it because it’s not lost. It’s not lost because it’s the only Reality that Exists.

Yes, only Awareness exists and you’re it. Every so- called other shares your infinite being. You are like an infinite Ocean in which everything floats and swims. You are not born and you do not die. The playful forms and organisms are born and die, but the Radiant Living Awareness that circulates between their cycles of birth and death, doesn’t. 

You will not end when your body ends. You will see then and you can also see now, that this is true. Awareness is true, absolutely true, the Screen upon which all phenomena appear.

So relax and enjoy the show. After all, you wrote it, directed it, starred in it. You also built the theater and the audience in the Auditorium of the Heart.

The practical take away is this: every idea you ever had about yourself is wrong because you are not an idea, a thing. You are the Awareness of the idea.

When this becomes obvious to you, the cultural and religious conditioning starts to crack and melt. It’s the chrysalis and you’re the butterfly. The butterfly has to struggle through a tiny hole to get out of the chrysalis. It takes hours. As she squeezes through the pinhole, her wet body is cleaned and dried. If you try to help her and widen the hole with your pocket knife, she will get out faster, but she will die because the water that was not squeezed out is too heavy for her delicate body to carry.

Think about that the next time your petty preference are not met or you find yourself in a swamp at midnight. It is this kind of adversity and the courage it takes to face it that produces butterflies and mature adults.

As our precious human family enters the next gruesome phase of medical techno-fascism and the rise of the bio-security state, you can be sure that the only ones who survive will be the ones who comprehended and transcended the false narratives that have been stuffed down our throats and up our asses for millennia..

We colluded with them and went along with their bullshit. Those days are over.

With love,

Robert

Marblemount, WA, USA

e-mail address shelter@nwlink.com

cell phone 360-393-5663