From the shock of my birth and the fear of my death, I doubt and collapse from Love, my True Condition, and dramatize betrayal, abandonment, and worthlessness

I collapse from love and create suffering through self pity and blame

I blame others and transfer ownership of myself to them.

I create scapegoats and false gods in my rage.

I destroy Love and betray it and accuse others of betraying me

I create doubt and fear.  When I fear I want security.  When I want security, I empower false gods, tyrants, experts, strategies, and substances to save me.

I am a fundamentalist, a fascist, and a tyrant in an ego cult of one.

I enslave others in my hellish condition of dread

I abuse others with my self pity

I dramatize abandonment and rejection and self pity and fuel all my other lesser addictions with it.

I harm myself and others with my addiction to a false self, an idea, a victim/robot who imagines itself to be separate from Love

I am a cultic worshipper in my exclusive ego cult of one.

I imprison others by my withdrawal from Love

I condemn others to the dungeons of my lovelessness

I betray Life by my withdrawal from Love.

My collapse and withdrawal from Love is sickening and starves all my relations.

I use these conditions to justify my accusations of betrayal.

I use other’s failure to love me to justify my own failure.

I betray Love and blame others for it

I reject love, then dramatize betrayal.

I make others wrong

I impose my agenda

I am a recovering ego addict because I notice the obvious Beauty and Love at the Heart of Existence and the way in which I obstruct it.

I am not separate from Life and Love

I am free to be in alignment with Life and Love or not.

I am responsible for the consequences of my alignment or non alignment with Life and Love.

I use my non alignment with Life and Love as an excuse and reason for self pity

I am inherently, already unified with what is always already the Case: seamless unity between consciousness and matter, God and self, whole and part.

I am recovering from self pity and the willingness to tolerate lovelessness in myself

I am a whirlpool in a River of Light

I am a recovering ego addict.

I am responsible For and To Love.

I maintain Heartfelt Intimacy with the Truth of Love, the Core of Reality.

I do not withdraw from my Actual Condition as a Whirlpool in this River.

I trust the White-Hot Core of Existence.

I trust Life’s Brilliance.

I am thrilled by the Intensity and Freedom and Love of Life

Life flows from Love, the Condition of all things

I am Always Already one with Life

Life is Love, I am That

Life is Love

Love is Truth

Truth is God

God is Reality

Reality is Light

Light is Love

I Love Life

I am responsible for Love

I am responsible to Love

My revulsion at my failure to love is the beginning of awakening

My responsibility for Love is authentic spiritual practice.

I am responsible for my choice of contexts, concepts, and conclusions, including their effects, outcomes and consequences.

I am free to love and to be what I already am, or not

I am responsible for everything I think, say, and do and their effect, implication, and consequence are my responsibility

I am responsible for the suffering I create.

I am intrinsically intimate with all beings.

I am a recovering ego addict

Poisons

Self pity: the dramatization of abandonment and victimhood. The belief in powerlessness and that everything happens to me, not in me, with me and because of me. The collapse from love into prisons of mind which equate baseless assumptions with factual evidence. Self pity is a self fulfilling prophecy and guarantees unresolvable conflict

Complaint: legitimate dissatisfaction that never grew into positive action for healthy change. Complaint is the evidence of living in a default ego mode in which one feels both terrified and powerless.

Blame: the demon child of complaint. The irresponsible transfer of ownership from self to other. Blame is the last refuge of the coward who refuses to accept the consequences of his own choices and actions.

Contempt: Decayed, rotten anger and hatred that never saw the light of day. Dissatisfaction that never grew into healthy change. Contempt is the vicious scorn heaped upon those to whom we gave our power and who got the blame for it.

Condemnation: the false assumption of superiority. The belief that I’m Ok, you’re not Ok. Condemnation is the evidence that I allow others to control my life.

Criticalness: the willingness to focus only on the faults of others as a way of avoiding one’s own faults

Withdrawal: the refusal to love. The silent punishment meted out to those who disobey my decrees and assert their own freedom. Withdrawal is the final nail in the coffin, the brutal ending of what was once a thriving love affair.

Nutrients

Self Ownership: The willingness to be responsible for what I say and do. The refusal to avoid the consequences of my actions. The understanding that my state is up to me, not circumstances, conditions or other people.

Alignment: Coherence between personal and infinite life. The return to innocence and purity, not by disciplines but by Noticing what is always already true. Alignment is the result of understanding that infinite intelligence exists on all scales, that it is my actual nature, not my hypothecated one. It is my self already, now. It does not become enlightened; It already is light. Enlightenment is, therefore, our actual state now. It is not something that is added to us at the end of a journey; It is our condition, now. That means that we can’t become who we are precisely because we already are it. What happens is that we un-become who we are not. This reveals the always existing alignment that had become obstructed by false assumptions and mistaken perceptions.

Acknowledgement: The Act of affirming and embracing what Exists. Acknowledgement is the result of the courage it takes to face one’s own limited contexts and false assumptions. By Bravely Acknowledging the Truth of Life, all the false identities dissolve on their own and do not require effortful struggle.

Recognition: The mature fruit of Acknowledgement. The stabilized understanding that infinite intelligence is Alive and Well as all things.

Empathy: Love in the form of a willingness to stand in another’s shoes. Empathy is food for the soul of another

Empowerment: one of the immediate results of empathy. Empowerment is the energy that comes from digesting love.

Demand: the requirement that life places upon us to face the Mystery and Wonder and Ordeal of Existence. Demand is the practice of not flinching, not avoiding the blood, sweat and tears of human life.

Enjoyment: The radical disposition of freedom. Enjoyment is the direct result of what happens when Life’s Radiance is unobstructed by our false assumptions and ego identities. In this understanding, the universe can be seen as an expression of Life’s infinite freedom and enjoyment of it’s own Intense Dynamic,

When an individual is willing to be reduced to his or her essential nature and is open to the truth and Glorious Nature of Existence, then that one becomes a Beacon of Light in the world.

It is at this point that an actual relationship begins.

When we Climb the Mountain and Understand the Poisons and the Nutrients, the rest is all downhill.

Countless births—and deaths—occur every day across our planet and the universe beyond.
Yet, Life continues to arise. Therefore, death is no threat to Life.
If one could stand back far enough, the universe would look like a bright light, with flames and tongues of fire: individuals.
Imagine every individual as a tongue of fire, or a filament in a light bulb that conducts energy, heat and light.
The light bulb burns out, the energy that conducts itself through it doesn’t.
We are that energy. Our hearts, minds and bodies are the circuit: bright lights on two legs.
The relationship between the bodymindself and the Light is so close, so intimate, it’s hard to tell them apart. In fact, it’s impossible to tell them apart.

The ecstatic intimacy between part and whole, self and God, matter and consciousness is a staggering wonder to behold.
Your awareness in this moment, and always, is perfectly coherent with the Awareness, the Aliveness Which conducts itself throughout the galactic body of the universe. The Ocean of Existence is made from Living Light: Self Conscious Aliveness.
The stars and galaxies are neurons in the Quantum Brain, the planets are Gardens of Delight. Individuals are literal Temples of God.
This is completely Obvious, on every scale.
Each human individual is a tiny fractal of That Which Is Alive As All Things.
Every person’s actual identity is this Light (Love).
A human is a sun, a star, a Tongue of God’s Flame.
The question is, Why is this fact not at the center of world culture?
Why do human beings give away their birthright for a bowl of porridge?
How is it possible on a planet so spectacularly beautiful as Earth, with gloriously, exquisitely gorgeous human beings all over it, to routinely, chronically miss the Obvious?
Life is Beautiful. Life is Love. Why is there so little understanding of this in our world?
My answer is We never get over the shock of birth, of suddenly showing up as a vulnerable individual in a chaotic world, and dramatize abandonment and victimhood, ad infinitum.
We play Poor Me/ Fuck You with a vengeance. We indulge in self-pity, then blame others for our sorry plight.
That’s why we don’t grow up. We remain childish, emotionally and spiritually.
Like children, we rely on mommydaddygod to tell us what’s true.
Our not-so-hidden rage at our self- imposed enslavement destroys and prevents equanimity and equilibrium.
Now, we need a savior.
The problem in this world is not a virus, not dictatorial governments, not banking cartels who stole our currency.
The problem is the mentality of slaves who believe what they are told and don’t take responsibility for finding out what’s true and being loyal to it.