By: Robert Cinque
(December 28, 2017)
I am sorry to interrupt anyone’s comfort zone, but I have some extremely disturbing news:
Reality is a complete Mystery. It is unknowable. Unexplainable. It’s not that it is “not yet known”. It is forever unknown and unknowable.
I didn’t say that this was “bad news”. I said that it is disturbing news. Personally, I think it’s Great News, just painful, disturbing to one’s sacred cows and hidden assumptions.
Reality, whatever it is altogether, is not a belief, an illusion, a trick of the mind. Reality is Truth Itself. Existence Itself. We don’t know what that is either.
Truth and Reality are not beliefs. Beliefs are what we say about Reality and Truth.
Truth is not relative, either. It doesn’t change. It doesn’t evolve. It Exists.
Truth has nothing to do with belief. Beliefs are projections onto Truth.
Truth is unknowable. Just like Reality Itself.
What you think you know, is just belief.
Even if your beliefs are accurate, even if you believe that something is true and it is, doesn’t mean that you know what anything IS. We name it, we invent things with it, but What the Fuck is it, anyway?
The best answer I know of is this: Awareness. Intelligence, Light. Conscious, Living Light that appears and disappears endlessly through eternal cycles of birth and death.
Do you have a problem with that? Do you withdraw from That?
Many people, most of us, do. Life is painful. We withdraw into ideas, strategies, self pity, anything that provides relief, distraction, pleasure. We suffer when we withdraw and so we seek relief.
But, openness to this Paradox, your Actual Situation at Infinity does not produce suffering, ego, or “me against the world”. Openness conducts the infinite power of Existence. Withdrawal leaves you with about 20 horsepower.
It’s not rocket science to understand that the Current, That Which is Alive as All Things, is inconceivably Powerful.
The question is, What is my relationship with it? It’s an emotional question. Do I trust it in my gut? Or do I dramatize rejection and abandonment and blame everybody?
Am I a Lover with this Great Beauty? Or am I a whiny pain in the ass?
This question, What is My Relationship with Infinite Being? and its’ answer is the most important decision to make, bar none. That’s because everything that flows from one or the other answer is determined by that answer, 100%.
If you live a life of a self enclosed me trying to survive, you’re gonna suffer because “you” and your idea about yourself is not going to survive. Ideas end. You don’t.
If you’re Open to the Situation without Flinching, then you are qualified to Conduct It.
Heartfelt true openness to the Mysterious Domain of Truth and Reality is the demand.
You can’t meditate, or medicate your way in. You already ARE “in”, you’re just lost in your cultural and spiritual delusions, and the confusion between “Individuated Light” and “me”.
There is only this Light. “You” and “me” are playful DNA circuits that Conduct It.
It is literally true that nothing exists except light. Matter comes from light, and back again. It’s not a problem until we make it into one. Repentance from sin means exactly the refusal to turn this Mystery and Wonder into a problem, to close down, to withdraw emotionally into doubt and fear.
Beliefs have nothing to do with Reality. Reality (Truth) is beyond belief. And before belief.
Belief is a golden calf, a false god.
Ordinary ego religion is a false god because the ego, “me” self idea is false.
You are an individual, not a self. A self is a thing, a separate object.
You are not a thing.
You are an infinite and Mysterious Presence appearing in and as an apparent individual.
There is only one Self, one Intelligence, one Reality, the True Self of all beings, masquerading as “you” and “me”.
Sorry to dispel your illusions about yourself, but you don’t know jack shit, and neither do I.
That’s our situation as born beings, individuals. We show up out of nowhere and appear as Joe. Nancy. The cat.
Now what? Usually, we are scared shitless and run like hell.
A very understandable reaction.
For Infinite Conscious Intelligent Awareness to suddenly show up as freckles and skinny legs is shocking, bewildering, frightening.
And, just because you believe God made the world and you’re going to heaven if you follow the rules and obey the instructions he gave us, doesn’t mean it’s true.
How do you know it’s true? You believe it. You read it in a book your ancestors gave you. You trust the source. It’s benevolent. It has to be true. God is love and he has a plan of salvation involving the Jews and the Crucifixion of Christ for the sins of Mankind.
This sounds really, really good because the world has lost its’ mind and we need salvation from sin.
As a former fundamental Christian Evangelist and graduate of 2 seminaries, I am going to tell you why this is not true. It’s not that I’m so smart and have degrees and “know the truth”.It’s because I realized Truth is unknowable and that my, your, and everyone’s beliefs come from an idea: the self idea.
When I conceive of myself as a separate thing, an object in a world that God made, then Nature, God, and everyone become…separate from each other. Divided. Conflicted.
Reality is not divided. Reality is Singular, Coherent. Not fragmented into billions and trillions of separate parts. There are no separate parts. Separate parts are impossible in a Singular Unity.
Life (God) is a Singular Unity and you couldn’t be separate from It no matter how hard you tried. You can believe you’re separate, but it doesn’t make it true.
There is no evidence whatsoever that you are a separate being living on your own 20 horsepower. None.
There is a gargantuan pile of evidence that you are being lived by a Great Power that you misconstrue as an other. It is not an other. There are no others.
There is only one Singular Mystery that is truly Great and breathtakingly Beautiful.
You don’t have to know what it is to love it.
You don’t have to cram it into your provincial models and maps to access It.
You don’t have to access it. You ARE it.
I can prove it. The ego self, however, can only prove its’ own premise and cite books it wrote as “proof”.
That’s called circular reasoning. You can’t make a definition and prove it with the same definition.
You can’t say God gave the land to the Jews because it says so in a book you wrote.
This is where the “Painful Realization” part comes in.
You realize that you are the creator of your beliefs. You chose the criteria, you cite the authorities. You believed in what you considered to be true. Then, comes the destruction of all of it because it was based on a false premise, the idea of a separate self. If you blow up the central support in a skyscraper, the whole thing comes down.
There is no thing left standing. The Good News about this is that You remain. Not ego you. You You. You are not a thing, some cheesy object of awareness.
You are Awareness Itself.This is the Original Gospel of Jesus: utter, profound, intimate unity with God, as the Very Condition of Existence. To sin is to deny this, according to Jesus of Nazareth.
Did you miss that part in your reading of the New Testament? If so, it’s probably because it was buried and ignored in favor of the Judaic plan of salvation through blood sacrifice and the scapegoating of the innocent for the sake of the guilty, a crime that continues to this day, all in the name of a merciful god.
This is THE Number One Worst Idea in the History of the World.
Monsters with scriptures want to convince you that you are separate from Life (God) and that you are defective. You need rescuing, salvation. Because you’re such a disobedient asshole and all, you need to work for a living and eat shit because your parents disobeyed God. Because he is so merciful, he sends his Beloved Son to take the blame for your sorry ass.
The idea of Original Sin is a Shock and Rescue psy-op. Beat ‘em up, come to the rescue.
I am here to tell you: there is nothing ugly or shameful about you and you don’t need rescuing, you need eyeglasses that see through the slop and the filth of Spiritual Lies like the Loathsome and Dreadful Original Sin.
If you can convince people that God is a murderous psychopath who praises Abraham for being willing to murder Isaac and who murders his own Son for the sake of irresponsible children who won’t grow up, then you can justify anything. Murder. Rape. Genocide.
One has only to look at Israel and the Middle East for proof.
Or into one’s own heart of darkness and our routine betrayal of Life.